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Wow this weekened has been very unexpected. I fucked up, and while doing so I did something that I regret. It just happened,and now I hate myself for it.It is weird when you are use to a certin type of person, so you start thinking that other people are going to work the same way, but then you realize that they don't.I don't know if that made any sence, but something important occured in my life yesturday.My friend&I decided to "full around", and now I feel like a disgusting freak.I hate when I fuck up, and I've come to realize that I'm not ready for someone forcefull like that. I felt like I did'nt have a say in anything, and he definately took advantage of me. I was really drunk, and everything really hurt. I really do like Taylor, I feel like it wasn't my fault, and now I don't want to see this guy ever again. Maybe I wasn't sure if I knew anything about the average male world, but now I know how sex driven they might really be. I feel really dirty, and I never want to do anything physical with anyone for a really long time.