Looking for classic (I think?) longfic with bonding, rituals, aphrodisiacs
Hiya!
First off, thanks for letting me join. I've been looking for a fic for years and I stumbled over this community via Google and figured it's worth a shot.
My memories are fuzzy, but I think I remember reading it on ff.net, and that it was long. Snape and Harry, for some reason, need to have sex/bond, but they are uninterested in each other. Specifics I remember are:
*Snape gradually teaching Harry to accept touch and closeness by, among other things, sitting close often, and giving him massages.
*A very elaborate ritual which Harry prepares for by learning to cite a text in a weird language, I think? In the ritual, he is first cleansed in a small pool, including an orgasm or two, I think, and also ingests something that makes him trip balls, and acts as a powerful aphrodisiac as well. He then offers himself, body and soul, to Snape, possibly with witnesses around.
I'm sorry if this isn't enough to go on, but it's all my brain can dredge up. It's been years since I read it, so I might have gotten some details wrong as well. Do any of you kind people know which fic I'm talking about?
First off, thanks for letting me join. I've been looking for a fic for years and I stumbled over this community via Google and figured it's worth a shot.
My memories are fuzzy, but I think I remember reading it on ff.net, and that it was long. Snape and Harry, for some reason, need to have sex/bond, but they are uninterested in each other. Specifics I remember are:
*Snape gradually teaching Harry to accept touch and closeness by, among other things, sitting close often, and giving him massages.
*A very elaborate ritual which Harry prepares for by learning to cite a text in a weird language, I think? In the ritual, he is first cleansed in a small pool, including an orgasm or two, I think, and also ingests something that makes him trip balls, and acts as a powerful aphrodisiac as well. He then offers himself, body and soul, to Snape, possibly with witnesses around.
I'm sorry if this isn't enough to go on, but it's all my brain can dredge up. It's been years since I read it, so I might have gotten some details wrong as well. Do any of you kind people know which fic I'm talking about?