sad!fic

[aikawa_akihiko]

hey! i'm looking for a fic i read about a year ago on ff.net. it was a forced marriage one. snape was angry that he was forced into this, so angry that when they had to consummate, he completely blocked out the fact that harry was screaming no and fighting him. he also forgot to cast contraceptives and harry ended up pregnant. they had been tentatively getting along up to that point. at some point snape sees a memory of the night and hates himself for what he did to harry. Dumbledore was mad at snape for forgetting and accused him of ruining Harry's life. after that snape began to always be angry and possibly drink, until one night harry came home to a drunk snape who beat him with a fire poker. harry lost his baby and snape realized what he did. Dumbledore locked him in his chambers and made it so that he as unable to kill himself. harry ended up forgiving him and burning their quarters down with snape in it and snape was grateful to him for it.

hardcore, i know! i bawled like a baby at the end, but i have never been able to get it out of my head!