in which there is probably something wrong with me, but I don't entirely care
So I'm 27 years old. I've been through 5 years of college, and 4 years after college. I have an actual, grown-up job with actual grown-up responsibilities (I'm a manager! Me!). I have my own apartment, in an area of town that most people consider at least a little dangerous (I don't, particularly. It's not like it's Midtown.) I have bills to pay, and schedules to keep, and mostly they are paid, and kept. I pay taxes! My knees creak when I kneel, and my wrist aches in cold weather.
So why is that I have to continually remind myself that I am not, in fact, just out of high school? Why do I feel like very nearly (if not quite) the same person I was 9 years ago? Am I that immature now? Or was I this mature then?
Maybe it's just because I haven't been through a serious relationship and it's messy end (like most of my friends have). Maybe it's because several of my best friends are younger than I am. Maybe it's because I've never had kids. Maybe it's because I haven't traveled much. Maybe living a stable, mostly happy life just denies you the sort of experiences that make you feel . . . grown up. *shrugs*
I'm not complaining about this, really.
But there's probably some psychological reason for the fact that I just can not wrap my head around the fact that I'll be 30 in less than three years.
So why is that I have to continually remind myself that I am not, in fact, just out of high school? Why do I feel like very nearly (if not quite) the same person I was 9 years ago? Am I that immature now? Or was I this mature then?
Maybe it's just because I haven't been through a serious relationship and it's messy end (like most of my friends have). Maybe it's because several of my best friends are younger than I am. Maybe it's because I've never had kids. Maybe it's because I haven't traveled much. Maybe living a stable, mostly happy life just denies you the sort of experiences that make you feel . . . grown up. *shrugs*
I'm not complaining about this, really.
But there's probably some psychological reason for the fact that I just can not wrap my head around the fact that I'll be 30 in less than three years.