I like someone
for cute reasons.
I decided to allow myself to attribute significance to some little things. I don't know how to explain it except I want to enjoy the little things because they mean a lot. I'm in a strange place with things so taking everything as easy as I can. There has to be a nice part it can not all be a struggle. There has to be some risk this seems like an okay one.
You want to know how I knew I liked that person? I was okay with a little mystery. That would take trust but it's more just takes time to get to know people. He's one of those people you could know for 50 years and probably still have some quark or story you haven't heard. Not that I'm thinking that far ahead lol...just one of those to differentiate between temporary mystery and people who are candid kind of thing. Working on the fine line between allowing graceful dignity and wanting to know every last fucking detail. Intellectually I understand knowing every last thing is maybe counter productive but feelings not always in agreement.
Anyway had a pretty productive day but it was small scale. Would be cool to keep that momentum for tomorrow and build up to bigger things going well. I put some flowers by my potted flowers. It was a nice touch. Used one of the vases I got from Ivy's.
Frustrated no real news on some serious issues but I think there's several things I need to be doing regardless so no news is neutral. It's very frustrating and sometimes a safety concern about others doing their job or not so it's super fucking stressful. Times are strange for everyone.
Been thinking lately it'd be nice if this makes people kinder but I've been around long enough to know better. Sad.
Staring at one of my paintings. I put a few up. That one has a sunset. I am in a good enough place I feel like getting rid of even old creative things.(***NOT that one) I'll probably take pictures/etc them. I think I'll work on scrapbook too.
Part of the reason I want certain things over is so I can just get rid of unnecessary papers etc. Part of my issue with just chucking things is I feel like I deserve a past. At some level functional is great. No complaint. I'm fully human so personality/preference is a thing.Heck just size of chair kind of thing is a thing where is it being picky to just want something good enough to if not be perfect forever object be a non issue/distraction/discomfort.
Was thinking that should apply to people not just chairs lol.