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I think i need to get my medication adjusted. I think I'm going nuts.
Well, crazier, anyway. My anxiety has decided to make itself known in a really irritating way. I'm being crazy hard on myself, am overwhelmed with self-loathing when I'm not keeping myself busy or sleeping, and today, while reading a mildly exciting novel, I felt my heart pounding so hard that I am pretty sure I was actually going into a mild panic attack. I was anxious about the characters in the novel, but not so much that I should've had a heartbeat reminiscent of a quick sprint. I took some deep breaths, tried to calm myself down, and I was fine, but it was scary.
I don't know what's wrong with me, except that I'm going 'home' in a week, and I keep saying things online that make me disgusted with myself. Oh, and I've gotten fuck all done these past few weeks on the article I'm supposed to be writing. Though I've made huge progress with the anthology I'm working on.
So, crazy. Yeah.
Well, crazier, anyway. My anxiety has decided to make itself known in a really irritating way. I'm being crazy hard on myself, am overwhelmed with self-loathing when I'm not keeping myself busy or sleeping, and today, while reading a mildly exciting novel, I felt my heart pounding so hard that I am pretty sure I was actually going into a mild panic attack. I was anxious about the characters in the novel, but not so much that I should've had a heartbeat reminiscent of a quick sprint. I took some deep breaths, tried to calm myself down, and I was fine, but it was scary.
I don't know what's wrong with me, except that I'm going 'home' in a week, and I keep saying things online that make me disgusted with myself. Oh, and I've gotten fuck all done these past few weeks on the article I'm supposed to be writing. Though I've made huge progress with the anthology I'm working on.
So, crazy. Yeah.