I bought those pills I thought I would need
When I went to Montreal last summer, there was this small bus and for a small donation to the homeless you could write on the bus. Most people wrote about love and how great life was, to seize the opportunities we let slip through our hands everyday.
A mere hour ago you called me to tell me you were in the emergency room. You had swallowed a whole bottle of Advil. Why? I was furious and scared. Why would you do something like this? So many people in this world love you and you tried to throw it away. I get this call that you are in the emergency room for what you did. I scolded you for being so stupid, but reminded you that I loved you and you should never do something so dangerous again. I can't help but be scared. I cried and I prayed. I prayed for your safety because you are alone. I prayed for you to gain some clarity. I prayed that you would understand the impact you've left on the world.
Please be okay and never do this again.
To all my LJ friends. Please understand you have left a footprint on this Earth and your presence means something to many people. Even in little ways. Reading your journals over the years have given me comfort and support like you will never know. If you were to leave, I would notice, I would care, I would wonder. Today, I ask all of you PLEASE seize this day. Please just live whole heartedly for the day and the next. Please take that chance you've been longing to take. Not only for me, but for yourselves.