I think it's about time for an update... unfortunately, it's not going to be a happy one.
I don't know where to start.
I wish I could move out. My mum is always pissed off these days. I don't know if it's work, or if my Dad did something, or if I did something, but it's not nice to be here when she's home. Another reason I want to move is so that she isn't so involved in my life. She wants to talk to Dipak. To find out his side of the story. In my opinion, the relationship I had with him isn't really any of her business, and if I don't want her talking to him, she shouldn't. But what do I know? Does it matter what I want? Apparently not.
Dipak is pissing me off. Keeps questioning me about what I'm doing and who I'm talking to and who am I going to hang out with and complaining I don't see him or talk to him and all the rest of it. I'm thinking I should have told him I don't want to be friends. Maybe things would have been easier. Although I don't think he would have left me alone even if I had said I didn't want to stay friends. How did I get myself in such a mess? FUCK.
Hayden just told me Blenheim probably won't go ahead. Which is both good and bad. Oh well. I feel shitty. I seem to feel shitty quite often these days. I'm hoping it's just a phase. That's my bitch for the night.
I wish I could move out. My mum is always pissed off these days. I don't know if it's work, or if my Dad did something, or if I did something, but it's not nice to be here when she's home. Another reason I want to move is so that she isn't so involved in my life. She wants to talk to Dipak. To find out his side of the story. In my opinion, the relationship I had with him isn't really any of her business, and if I don't want her talking to him, she shouldn't. But what do I know? Does it matter what I want? Apparently not.
Dipak is pissing me off. Keeps questioning me about what I'm doing and who I'm talking to and who am I going to hang out with and complaining I don't see him or talk to him and all the rest of it. I'm thinking I should have told him I don't want to be friends. Maybe things would have been easier. Although I don't think he would have left me alone even if I had said I didn't want to stay friends. How did I get myself in such a mess? FUCK.
Hayden just told me Blenheim probably won't go ahead. Which is both good and bad. Oh well. I feel shitty. I seem to feel shitty quite often these days. I'm hoping it's just a phase. That's my bitch for the night.