This has been a while coming...
Well, it's been forever since I wrote in here, or even logged in to this journal. Uh. Life's pretty awesome. Job good, boyfriend attained, new computer get, drowning in Christmas music, etc etc. There's one thing that's been bothering me lately, and it's something that deserves a public airing.
I roleplay a lot, online and off, and inevitably there is drama. Offline, when faced with drama, I attempt to resolve things by being calm, logical and empathetic, and the occasional impassioned disagreement aside, I have never lost a friend to misunderstanding. I have never cut anyone out of my life, nor have I been cut out myself. Part of this is luck, and part of it is being good at people.
Online, I have been less successful. Over the past year I made the decision to be more selective in who I interact with in online games. I have chosen to ask certain people to not interact with me, in an attempt to avoid drama. I did not succeed in that goal, though those people honored my request. I lost people I had considered friends over the course of this decision, and alienated others who might have become friends because of it. It seems that no matter what I do, I lose.
So, basically, fuck it.
For the coming new year, I'm establishing a new resolution to end this behavior, effective immediately. If I am in a game and my character has a reason to interact with another, I will not avoid that interaction. If, OOC, I am treated with friendliness and respect, I will respond in kind. I will keep things that others may tell me about the people I interact with in mind and respect their own decisions, but I will not allow them to dictate what I do or who I talk to.
So now I have some apologies to make. I'll start with the public one and go on from there: For those I have hurt, I'm sorry. I've been a dick.
I roleplay a lot, online and off, and inevitably there is drama. Offline, when faced with drama, I attempt to resolve things by being calm, logical and empathetic, and the occasional impassioned disagreement aside, I have never lost a friend to misunderstanding. I have never cut anyone out of my life, nor have I been cut out myself. Part of this is luck, and part of it is being good at people.
Online, I have been less successful. Over the past year I made the decision to be more selective in who I interact with in online games. I have chosen to ask certain people to not interact with me, in an attempt to avoid drama. I did not succeed in that goal, though those people honored my request. I lost people I had considered friends over the course of this decision, and alienated others who might have become friends because of it. It seems that no matter what I do, I lose.
So, basically, fuck it.
For the coming new year, I'm establishing a new resolution to end this behavior, effective immediately. If I am in a game and my character has a reason to interact with another, I will not avoid that interaction. If, OOC, I am treated with friendliness and respect, I will respond in kind. I will keep things that others may tell me about the people I interact with in mind and respect their own decisions, but I will not allow them to dictate what I do or who I talk to.
So now I have some apologies to make. I'll start with the public one and go on from there: For those I have hurt, I'm sorry. I've been a dick.