War
Look... Most of my friends are girls, and most of them know me considerably well. This is what I got to come home to today:
Seriously Ande, I love you...
HAHAH! There's another time it's been said and not meant...guess you get that alot huh?
...soo fucking funny...the drama is amazing. Say what you want to because it doesn't hurt anymore. Believe what you want too..I got what I need in life! :)
... funny how everyone fighting with you is wrong...
figure you'd realize.
Knowing me, and being sensitive females, I ask you, IS THERE ANYTHING SOMEONE COULD SAY TO ME THAT WOULD BE MORE ABSOLUTELY SURE TO CRUSH ME?
How ironic... Taking a fragment of the past she swore she would never duplicate and stabbing me in the throat with it...
But I had an epiphany today.
The day started abysmally. I woke up in my car, having left home again, came to school, and for the first two, two and a half hours, heard about nothing but how much all of my friends hated me now for "what I had done to Erin". Funny how all of them knew, and I did not. All morning I dealt with this, leaving me crushed, listless, and sad, feeling betrayed. Then I went to science, where it was worst, and even Kat couldn't look me in the eye, and sitting there, I looked around, and thought about what had gone in that room before today, and I came to a revelation:
I own this place.
You can't turn my own fans on me! Ohhhhh no, I am ANDE, I am the invincible galloping asshole, and anyone who really knows me knows I'm 100% right. When confident, I am unstoppable. So I said, hey, fuck my so called friends behind me, let them gather around the grand canyon that is Erins exposed ass crack and giggle and mutter darkly, I don't care!
So I went to the front of the room, sat with Chris and Nikki, and in five minutes it was all gravy again. Back on my side. Then on to gym. Parker, Mulvihill, and Steph, all back to me. Bam. On to lunch: Alyse and Jaymie, back behind the Mitchell banner, and so it was, and so it is, and so fuck you Erin, I am immortal. There are plenty of people who don't like me, but they all suck. Do not challenge the throne with your lies and propaganda.
I was irritated last night that Christine left and I didn't get to say goodbye, but more irritating was waking up in my passenger seat this morning with no oxygen and the fuckin sun apparently leaning on my windshield. I'm home now, I dunno what's going on with that... I just don't feel like dealing with this anymore.
But I'll be fine, I'm sure.
For the most part I still think this is all pretty comical.
Sorry if this came off arrogant but after what she said I kinda needed a boost.
Peace, love, empathy,
/Ande
Edit:
And on reading this again after, how wretchedly cruel of you to bring up the fact that in the course of my eighteen years on this planet no one has ever loved me, everyone turned out to be cold and uncaring or a lying manipulative whore, like you. I hate you so much for making me have to think about it again, and you know you can bitch about the little drama scars you give yourself for attention all you want, you have no idea what it is to truly, honestly hurt.
Seriously Ande, I love you...
HAHAH! There's another time it's been said and not meant...guess you get that alot huh?
...soo fucking funny...the drama is amazing. Say what you want to because it doesn't hurt anymore. Believe what you want too..I got what I need in life! :)
... funny how everyone fighting with you is wrong...
figure you'd realize.
Knowing me, and being sensitive females, I ask you, IS THERE ANYTHING SOMEONE COULD SAY TO ME THAT WOULD BE MORE ABSOLUTELY SURE TO CRUSH ME?
How ironic... Taking a fragment of the past she swore she would never duplicate and stabbing me in the throat with it...
But I had an epiphany today.
The day started abysmally. I woke up in my car, having left home again, came to school, and for the first two, two and a half hours, heard about nothing but how much all of my friends hated me now for "what I had done to Erin". Funny how all of them knew, and I did not. All morning I dealt with this, leaving me crushed, listless, and sad, feeling betrayed. Then I went to science, where it was worst, and even Kat couldn't look me in the eye, and sitting there, I looked around, and thought about what had gone in that room before today, and I came to a revelation:
I own this place.
You can't turn my own fans on me! Ohhhhh no, I am ANDE, I am the invincible galloping asshole, and anyone who really knows me knows I'm 100% right. When confident, I am unstoppable. So I said, hey, fuck my so called friends behind me, let them gather around the grand canyon that is Erins exposed ass crack and giggle and mutter darkly, I don't care!
So I went to the front of the room, sat with Chris and Nikki, and in five minutes it was all gravy again. Back on my side. Then on to gym. Parker, Mulvihill, and Steph, all back to me. Bam. On to lunch: Alyse and Jaymie, back behind the Mitchell banner, and so it was, and so it is, and so fuck you Erin, I am immortal. There are plenty of people who don't like me, but they all suck. Do not challenge the throne with your lies and propaganda.
I was irritated last night that Christine left and I didn't get to say goodbye, but more irritating was waking up in my passenger seat this morning with no oxygen and the fuckin sun apparently leaning on my windshield. I'm home now, I dunno what's going on with that... I just don't feel like dealing with this anymore.
But I'll be fine, I'm sure.
For the most part I still think this is all pretty comical.
Sorry if this came off arrogant but after what she said I kinda needed a boost.
Peace, love, empathy,
/Ande
Edit:
And on reading this again after, how wretchedly cruel of you to bring up the fact that in the course of my eighteen years on this planet no one has ever loved me, everyone turned out to be cold and uncaring or a lying manipulative whore, like you. I hate you so much for making me have to think about it again, and you know you can bitch about the little drama scars you give yourself for attention all you want, you have no idea what it is to truly, honestly hurt.