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Christine's prom was last night, it went well, we made it there okay, had fun, blah blah blah, it was a decent night, hanging out afterwards was a blast cause everyone was wicked cool, particularly Mj and Matt, and now, to quote Marty, I'm about ready to eat a shotgun. I mean, the night did go very well and I was happy to be there, it's just rough being surrounded by sentimental couples with your date acting like she brought her cousin, and much as I'm still determined to be patient, understanding, and low-key, just this once let me say: Ouch.
But that's not the source of the new angst, oh no, I've been dealing with that for a year. Matt's leaving the band. You know, I talk to the kid when he has his moods, I deal with his angst issues just as I force everyone with me as a friend to deal with mine, I reason with him,I pet him when his tummy hurts, but Matt, sometimes, dude, you are just a douschebag. There's no need for this, Kaishaku should be all about love and ya just keep on yelling. So yah, there's the imminent danger of my band dying, and Mike's cumslut girlfriend just broke up with him, god I hate her, and that makes me sad because Mike rocks my face off and he shouldn't have to deal with the volatile chaos that is estrogen.
My family had been treating me like shit all day. I feel like a ghost in this house, I go to get something, and someone just steps in front of me, THROUGH me, like I'm not there, or worse like I'm some hideous rodent... Just the things that they've been doing and saying all day coupled with the events last night, added to my shit mentality and shaken well leave me yet again with the feeling that no one gives a damn and no one will.
I'm dropping out and moving.
I'm sorry guys, really I am, but yah, I'm gonna go through with it. In a few months there will finally be nothing left for me here, so not to be dramatic or stupid, but I'm gonna get myself out of here and set up somewhere else before the next school year. I really am sorry guys, I hope no one's too pissed, but there is no way in hell I can keep this up.
I don't want to smile anymore.
But that's not the source of the new angst, oh no, I've been dealing with that for a year. Matt's leaving the band. You know, I talk to the kid when he has his moods, I deal with his angst issues just as I force everyone with me as a friend to deal with mine, I reason with him,I pet him when his tummy hurts, but Matt, sometimes, dude, you are just a douschebag. There's no need for this, Kaishaku should be all about love and ya just keep on yelling. So yah, there's the imminent danger of my band dying, and Mike's cumslut girlfriend just broke up with him, god I hate her, and that makes me sad because Mike rocks my face off and he shouldn't have to deal with the volatile chaos that is estrogen.
My family had been treating me like shit all day. I feel like a ghost in this house, I go to get something, and someone just steps in front of me, THROUGH me, like I'm not there, or worse like I'm some hideous rodent... Just the things that they've been doing and saying all day coupled with the events last night, added to my shit mentality and shaken well leave me yet again with the feeling that no one gives a damn and no one will.
I'm dropping out and moving.
I'm sorry guys, really I am, but yah, I'm gonna go through with it. In a few months there will finally be nothing left for me here, so not to be dramatic or stupid, but I'm gonna get myself out of here and set up somewhere else before the next school year. I really am sorry guys, I hope no one's too pissed, but there is no way in hell I can keep this up.
I don't want to smile anymore.