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i totally don't feel like i'm on vacation. i haven't done anything that i don't do usually. and i miss caballero uno! i'm going to my aunt's house tomorrow--i wish i could have gone sooner. that will be nice--a real vaction away from the city. damn all you people who got to go back to atlanta, and paul i was thinking about it and i DO always ask for a buddy pass! anyways.
so, i feel quite horrible basically because as recent events have proven i have learned nothing from the things i have been through. freshman year i was not treated well by someone and it literally took me like a year to forgive them. i was totally disallusioned then, and looking back i see how things really were. the worst part is that now i find myself in almost the exact same situation, except now i'm the one doing the hurting... someone hurt me, and now i'm hurting someone-- it's like some fucked up backwards karma system. sometimes i just feel like things aren't fair in my life or i get upset a lot about my relationships, but in a way i feel like i deserve it all--i guess i just have bad karma for a bit.... i guess when this happened to me things were fucked up until i finally forgave the other person. >sigh< that's something i don't really see happening for awhile.
i wish i had friends to hang out with, i'm bored. i made three pies today....
so, i feel quite horrible basically because as recent events have proven i have learned nothing from the things i have been through. freshman year i was not treated well by someone and it literally took me like a year to forgive them. i was totally disallusioned then, and looking back i see how things really were. the worst part is that now i find myself in almost the exact same situation, except now i'm the one doing the hurting... someone hurt me, and now i'm hurting someone-- it's like some fucked up backwards karma system. sometimes i just feel like things aren't fair in my life or i get upset a lot about my relationships, but in a way i feel like i deserve it all--i guess i just have bad karma for a bit.... i guess when this happened to me things were fucked up until i finally forgave the other person. >sigh< that's something i don't really see happening for awhile.
i wish i had friends to hang out with, i'm bored. i made three pies today....