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[snaplover9]

my life is falling apart
evrything is happening at once
my mind is going to explode
ok so where should i start
my grades are falling
my grandma is is the hospital
and im scared 
i cant looose another one i care for
my parents hate me right now
we are always getting into fights
mostly about school
my dad wants to move out cause he cant take it anymore
he might want a devorse
i feel like it is my fault
my X boyfriend is harassing me
and he had to bring katey into it
he wants pat to meet him on fri for a fight at the mall
he is so stupid
i no he is upset but this isnt the way to show it
and then he goes to some of my other friends o i still care for her
i would never want to hurt her
i just want her to be happy
thats all bullshit!!!!
he has threatened to kill me
i told the cop at the school but not all of it yet
someone imed me 
i think it might have been my X
he was callling me fat and ugly and a les
my self esteem is now brought down like no other
i cant handle it all anymore
i need a break!
i need to get away to a happy place!
mabe with some friends...idk

but there are a few good things....
i qualified in tomarrows meet
3 boys and 3 girls
and i made it
i was surprised
im kinda nervous
but ill be ok
and im home from school right now
because i need a day to just think!

well ill talk to you all later!bye