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Why can't i just be happy in a relationship? i used to be idealistic [or naive?] about stuff like that but then i got stabbed in the back too many times and now i have fucked up intimacy issues and i'm stuck in that whole 'i hate you don't leave me' cycle. i love my girlfriend i do but i can go from wanting to be around her to wanting her to fuck off to wanting her again in about five minutes which is all very confusing for the both of us and leads to arguments and misunderstandings and its all very fucked up and frustrating. I'm very stressed and rambling without punctuation arrrgh probably not making sense at all. maybe im just not cut out for relationships anymore and i should just lock myself in a house with 500 cats like a bitter old woman.
God whatever.
God whatever.