life has sucked
well im officially depressed. brian and me are nuthing. we got in a huge fight and i hung up and he told me never to talk to him again. it really sucks cause i dont think that im so much hurt that we arent "together" but the fact that i lost my best friend. i mean i told im everything. and that is what hurts the most. this happened on saturday and ever since then a ton of funny shit has happened and i wanted to call and tell him everything but i cant. its kinda like hes dead and im morning him. it was a little easier today. i still think about him all the time. when i eat, sleep, think, laugh, cry. all the time. i dont think ive ever had a dream about the same person twice in a row but ive had 3 dreams about me and brian getting back together. i wonder if i cared for him more than i thought i did. im not saying i love the kid but he sure did mean more to me that i thought. what do u do? its like i pray to god that he will call me and be like im sorry i freaked out about everything...can we still be friends. omg id say yes in a heartbeat. i dont think id even have to think about it. i mean i know that ill eventually feel better, im not sure if we will ever be friends again. but what do i do till then?