what the fuck is going on
well once again im as confused as ever. when brian called me last night he told me he had been drinking but he seemed pretty there and everything. it kinda bothered me though cause he never has had that tone of voice with me before and i dont like it comming from him. well when he said that about not having a reason to be mad at me i was really happy but then today he wont return my phone calls again. so im like what is up? i invited him to my cookout tonight but i know hes not gonna show. i just have a lil hope for him. he was such an awesome guy and i fucken blew it. ugh. is what he doesnt know is that i was being a bitch as a front. i was still at that uncomfortable stage with him cause i didnt know where things were gonna go. im seriuosly to the point that ill be whoever he wants me to be. i saw this purse today and i wanted to buy it just cause it said....love suks!