ponderings
Hahahahahahaha life is such a joke it makes me cry.
Im sitting here..hmm how many lj entries u think starts like that..im sitting here..as if you would be running or dancing or doing jumping jacks or some shit...yeah so im sitting here listening to music in some headphones...Kelley just fell asleep watching Dirty Dancing Havana nights...a large rip off from the original but who am I to say shit like that...I hardly like the original all I can think of when Patrck Swaze dances is SNL Chippindales with Chris Farley...I miss Chris Farely he needs to come back to life for a little while and help SNL out b/c its going down the toilet as well as Mad Tv... yeah so the original Dirty Dancing should get credit.. I wonder why shit like that bugs me.. like when people do a new version of an old song..i get all annoyed when people dont realize its not the original version..why should i care? Ok i really have to go to the bathroom but the cleaning ladies are in there and the door is locked. Not cool. I dont have another class till 1:35... ive been feeling so horribly ugly lately, i havent cared in a while but i dunno just so ugly and gross..
Ok so there are some new major developments in my life would you like to hear about them? Well since i missed 6 of my college writing classes I have been informed that I will be failing that class no matter what. Its ok though ..well not really but my strategy to not explain to my mom why it happened is good. I wont get in trouble..I hope ..oh boy do i hope. I have till March 25th to drop the class and have it not effect my GPA. Its a class that i must get a C or better in to pass..and that just aint gonna happen. My plan is to still go to the class so I dont feel as if im lying a ridiculous amount to my mom.. Im going to say that its been real hard and my teacher doesnt like my writing...and that Ive just been doing bad and that a lil b4 march 25 i will tell her that and ill withdraw so it doensnt make a mark on mu gpa..Im also goign to attempt to do realllly good in all my other classes so i dont feel lke a dirtbag, which I currently feel ...and that solves THAT problem...
Number 2
Ok I like my college and everything but I dont feel right being here. I dont feel right spending $48,000 a year that my mom doesnt have that is giving me classes that I can take at home. Its first of all, a lot of pressure and I just dont feel its necessary. dont get me wrong, I love the people the friends the city and my family here, and I needed to come here. The choice I made to come here last year was not the wrong one. Cause think about it if i didnt come here I would have been kicking myself in the ass forever that I didnt take this oppertunity. I just feel like i should be home with a car going to Brookdale and getting a job. So thats what I will be doing next year. I wanted to come to Northeastern to be able to say and tell people yeah I went to Northeastern and blah blah blah..but I honestly really dont care what people think about my college choices, I can come here get all the stupid classes done and go to like john jay for criminal justice shit. Theres a whole bunch of feasible options. I talked to my mom about it and she says she supports anything I want to do so that is awesome...My mommy is the bestest. Me and Kelley also talked about it and she feels that its probably the best thing to do for myself too. I mean i needed to come here to expeirence all ths shit and become more independant and deal with things alone that i would normally not have to, but now I can take all that shit i learned back home with me. I feel really good about this desicion and man I ve def given it enough thought and I hope everything will work out good. Ill be back home with Faye and closer to robby and have my owwwn rooommm ahhh how I love my room and miss my mom and gram and bunny and my doggy....hopefully rob will help me find a car like he said he would i would really appreciate that...i need one of those.
hmm i read something good the other day: but i cant find it so ill post it later .. I really really miss being called Rosario..and the person who calls me that
ok that about sums up my life for now...hows everyone else doing?
Im sitting here..hmm how many lj entries u think starts like that..im sitting here..as if you would be running or dancing or doing jumping jacks or some shit...yeah so im sitting here listening to music in some headphones...Kelley just fell asleep watching Dirty Dancing Havana nights...a large rip off from the original but who am I to say shit like that...I hardly like the original all I can think of when Patrck Swaze dances is SNL Chippindales with Chris Farley...I miss Chris Farely he needs to come back to life for a little while and help SNL out b/c its going down the toilet as well as Mad Tv... yeah so the original Dirty Dancing should get credit.. I wonder why shit like that bugs me.. like when people do a new version of an old song..i get all annoyed when people dont realize its not the original version..why should i care? Ok i really have to go to the bathroom but the cleaning ladies are in there and the door is locked. Not cool. I dont have another class till 1:35... ive been feeling so horribly ugly lately, i havent cared in a while but i dunno just so ugly and gross..
Ok so there are some new major developments in my life would you like to hear about them? Well since i missed 6 of my college writing classes I have been informed that I will be failing that class no matter what. Its ok though ..well not really but my strategy to not explain to my mom why it happened is good. I wont get in trouble..I hope ..oh boy do i hope. I have till March 25th to drop the class and have it not effect my GPA. Its a class that i must get a C or better in to pass..and that just aint gonna happen. My plan is to still go to the class so I dont feel as if im lying a ridiculous amount to my mom.. Im going to say that its been real hard and my teacher doesnt like my writing...and that Ive just been doing bad and that a lil b4 march 25 i will tell her that and ill withdraw so it doensnt make a mark on mu gpa..Im also goign to attempt to do realllly good in all my other classes so i dont feel lke a dirtbag, which I currently feel ...and that solves THAT problem...
Number 2
Ok I like my college and everything but I dont feel right being here. I dont feel right spending $48,000 a year that my mom doesnt have that is giving me classes that I can take at home. Its first of all, a lot of pressure and I just dont feel its necessary. dont get me wrong, I love the people the friends the city and my family here, and I needed to come here. The choice I made to come here last year was not the wrong one. Cause think about it if i didnt come here I would have been kicking myself in the ass forever that I didnt take this oppertunity. I just feel like i should be home with a car going to Brookdale and getting a job. So thats what I will be doing next year. I wanted to come to Northeastern to be able to say and tell people yeah I went to Northeastern and blah blah blah..but I honestly really dont care what people think about my college choices, I can come here get all the stupid classes done and go to like john jay for criminal justice shit. Theres a whole bunch of feasible options. I talked to my mom about it and she says she supports anything I want to do so that is awesome...My mommy is the bestest. Me and Kelley also talked about it and she feels that its probably the best thing to do for myself too. I mean i needed to come here to expeirence all ths shit and become more independant and deal with things alone that i would normally not have to, but now I can take all that shit i learned back home with me. I feel really good about this desicion and man I ve def given it enough thought and I hope everything will work out good. Ill be back home with Faye and closer to robby and have my owwwn rooommm ahhh how I love my room and miss my mom and gram and bunny and my doggy....hopefully rob will help me find a car like he said he would i would really appreciate that...i need one of those.
hmm i read something good the other day: but i cant find it so ill post it later .. I really really miss being called Rosario..and the person who calls me that
ok that about sums up my life for now...hows everyone else doing?