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Its been a little while since I've written .. and even now I don't know what I want to write..
I have been feeling really down since about Easter and I just don't seem to be able to pick myself up. It's not all the time, most the time I am ok, but at least once a week I just get unbelievably down. Not enough to want to kill myself, but enough to see me crying all day.
Some things in my life are going really well, other things just seem to turn to shit.
I try to help people and for the most part I have some incredible friends, but there are still so many people who are just using me, and waiting to see me fail. I am fed up with trying to prove myself. I am fed up with doctors blaming everything on my weight. Sure its a problem, but did they ever stop to think that maybe its my psychological being that is the problem and that its stopping me from losing weight. I wish I had answers to everyone's questions. I wish I could help everyone. But I am only one person, I can't do everything. Lately I don't feel like I can even do anything.
I know that is a jumbled mess, but that's pretty much how I am at the moment, just one big jumbled mess.
I have been feeling really down since about Easter and I just don't seem to be able to pick myself up. It's not all the time, most the time I am ok, but at least once a week I just get unbelievably down. Not enough to want to kill myself, but enough to see me crying all day.
Some things in my life are going really well, other things just seem to turn to shit.
I try to help people and for the most part I have some incredible friends, but there are still so many people who are just using me, and waiting to see me fail. I am fed up with trying to prove myself. I am fed up with doctors blaming everything on my weight. Sure its a problem, but did they ever stop to think that maybe its my psychological being that is the problem and that its stopping me from losing weight. I wish I had answers to everyone's questions. I wish I could help everyone. But I am only one person, I can't do everything. Lately I don't feel like I can even do anything.
I know that is a jumbled mess, but that's pretty much how I am at the moment, just one big jumbled mess.