Stress Rant
Have you ever wanted something so badly you ache with it?
That's how I feel right now. I'm in a constant state of anxiousness over this, and it all feels so pointless... and it's frustrating because I don't even know how it ended up this way. Why do I have to go through all of this again? Why do I have to feel like I'm constantly trying to prove myself? Why do I feel like I'm held to a higher standard than other people? Why am I constantly making comparisons? Why why why?
I just feel so powerless, and I know that I have what it takes, but absolutely no ability to reach out and get it...
I hate being at the mercy of others.
That's how I feel right now. I'm in a constant state of anxiousness over this, and it all feels so pointless... and it's frustrating because I don't even know how it ended up this way. Why do I have to go through all of this again? Why do I have to feel like I'm constantly trying to prove myself? Why do I feel like I'm held to a higher standard than other people? Why am I constantly making comparisons? Why why why?
I just feel so powerless, and I know that I have what it takes, but absolutely no ability to reach out and get it...
I hate being at the mercy of others.