Through a Glass Darkly

[snailrind]

The travel from Greece, combined with Britain's wintry weather, has had me spending a great deal of time lying in bed, unable to do very much or even think clearly for long stretches. I like to open my curtains and watch the sky from my bed, with clouds scudding past and birds doing their birdy things. I live in a sort of bird paradise, up on the

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"I need an easy friend...."

[anonymous]

I totally, utterly empathise with your situation, being in pretty much the same one myself, especially resisting the "rescue me!" phone call. And very much the stairs & the mash & gravy. I am all in a dither because having finally started to get over Le Viking débacle, today, who should appear on my doorstep begging for sympathy & obviously hoping sex got included in a Special Offer deal; but my ex of many years back. (he is a musician: of course!)

"My Girlfriend disappeared & i need someone intelligent, speaks English, who understands: you're all that & more, where else could i come?"

I made him mash & gravy & let him weep,dodging physical contact, we ended up laughing about past riches to rags life & both agreeing:

"If you have ever actually loved someone, even if you split, that tap never gets totally turned off; there will always be a drip left behind!"

I actually did think of you, the last place K & I were when still very much together, despite massive poverty, was Hydra.

Being with him made me realise both why i had loved him, yet that i made the right decision to end it & it's left me emotional; when what i'm actually trying to do is clamp down all emotional stuff. Nope, you can't do that, but you can have self control over how, to whom, when, why you release publicity stuff. That's our job right now, plus self-protection, some days hibernation is called for, other days we Know we Should tiptoe out into Fairyland despite goblins.

I've been up all night creating candles, highly recommended; wax is like life & love & bi-polar stuff: changes its state dramatically, needs constant monitoring for danger flash-point, the window of opportunity when it is malleable is tiny but wonderful....creating your own magic works well; demons & multi-layered magic mushrooms are what i've been making tonight/last night/...time loses meaning really doesn't it?

I think of you often, wish one day we could meet!

Terri.

Re: "I need an easy friend...."

[snailrind]

"there will always be a drip left behind!"

"the window of opportunity when it is malleable is tiny but wonderful"

That is a beautiful description. And the magic that can be wrought at such times is formidable.

I would love to meet you too, Terri.