my feet hurt and my arms itch
for a while now i have been thinking about how nice it would be to make a real diary entry in at least one of my online accounts... a real post.. like i used to do on diaryland.. that was quite a long time ago.... but i actually wrote what was going on then. hmm. since i got out of school... i haven't done anything considered productive by those arounds me. no job as of yet.. one eventually. tomorrow i'm going to go see about getting a job at ge. iwas hopeing to work there at night and subway druring the day... butya.. that would leave no time to spend with curt. which is ridiculous.. i rather be happy than be rolling in the dough.. how can i do both? ahha. the weekend is fastly approaching. my family is coming for a short stay before driving out to california... and jimmy's family is leaving... allowing for us to have little gatherings at his house. which should be agood time. ahha.. we won't have any money for this. so hmmmmmmmmmm i should really be in bed right now. i know people have heard me say way to many times... that i thought i had found something really good. ... so maybe i shouldn't talk about how i feel.. i don't even know when we started dating. somewhere between the 25 and 28.. or so.. maybe..not sure.ahahhah i really dont know. that is sad. maybe a few days later. i dont know.. and i can't believe that i don't know. ahahha. i don't believe i've ever felt this good inside when i look into anothers eyes.. i'm falling asleep. night