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the piney river is amazing. sally, caitlan, andrew and i went yesterday way out to hickman county where some of caitlan's family lives, and we swam all damn day in that river. it is crystal clear in the shallow parts and tourquoise in the deep parts. so beautiful. we jumped off rocks, ate mushrooms and had psychological breakthroughs (well, i did). i could live there. return to the wild. sleep in a cave. swim all day. yeah.
it was really perfect. everything about it. afterwards, we ate sonic and decided to drive to bonaroo. i think it was worth it? who knows. it rained as soon as we got there, and then we trekked through mud and rain and hippies to find some goodies. once we got those, it was right back to the car. damn, i am so glad i didn't pay money to go to that. but it was fun to check it out. and we got in for free, so that's cool. but way too many people for me. and we got back really late, which prevented me from going to franklin. that's alright. he can wait. today, today.
i decided i have to stop being depressed. it is pointless and it is in my control if i tell myself it is. i know that there are chemicals and what not involved, but to a great extent it is the thoughts i have that make me depressed. and i can change my thoughts. i can think positively and not irrationally. i can let go of bullshit that doesn't matter at all and be happy. i was yesterday, that's for sure. and i will be today.
it was really perfect. everything about it. afterwards, we ate sonic and decided to drive to bonaroo. i think it was worth it? who knows. it rained as soon as we got there, and then we trekked through mud and rain and hippies to find some goodies. once we got those, it was right back to the car. damn, i am so glad i didn't pay money to go to that. but it was fun to check it out. and we got in for free, so that's cool. but way too many people for me. and we got back really late, which prevented me from going to franklin. that's alright. he can wait. today, today.
i decided i have to stop being depressed. it is pointless and it is in my control if i tell myself it is. i know that there are chemicals and what not involved, but to a great extent it is the thoughts i have that make me depressed. and i can change my thoughts. i can think positively and not irrationally. i can let go of bullshit that doesn't matter at all and be happy. i was yesterday, that's for sure. and i will be today.