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[snabin]

Well its been a long long time since I've used this. I guess every now and then you just have to let everything out.

So everything is different. And I'm not a fan.

I feel like I'm in a bubble and I'm yelling a the top of my lungs but no one can hear what I'm saying.

Is it me? Do I need to just shut up and accept it? I dont know.

I miss May. May was cute. May was fun. May was... not January. It was comfortable.

Maybe the new May will be a repeat of the old May. One can only hope.

So what do I do? Do I quit my job? How can I fix the situation?

It seems like this job has done nothing but bad for me.

I go to work at the ass crack of dawn. I deal with old men who act like 5 year olds. IM the voice of reason... go figure.

I come home and I can't help but close my eyes. I want to be productive so bad. I want to have a life... but I can't.

I get the call and I head to her house. Have dinner where things are pretty normal, and we sit on the couch.

I watch tv. She does her laptop and phone thing. Then I go home

Rinse, lather, repeat. Every. Damn. Day.

Weekends are not my time off, but simply a breath of air before the next monotonous week begins.

So how do I break from the cycle? I wish I knew.

I guess if I had a towel, I'd be throwing it right now.