rambling on about nothing in particular.
so it's a little after midnight and I can't sleep, I haven't been able to sleep lately, I suppose it comes of not having a job for the first time in years... I'm graduated from college, I have no job (but I'm trying to get one at least) and I don't know what I want to do. It's really strange, like a depression almost...I just feel lethargic and apathetic. But I still get excited about weird things, like on saturday morning before I went home to visit mom for mothers day I washed and waxed my truck.
Now I gotta give you a little backstory on this first: for the past3 or 4 years I haven't really taken care of my truck. I don't know why, I just let it go downhill... I kept the oil changed and all the mechanical stuff taken care of but the appearance of the truck went downhill big time, I just stopped cleaning it out and washing it. I have no reason as to why I did this but I know it was stupid...anyway, It rained today and I was driving around and I noticed that the water was beaded up in very small beads on my hood and for some reason that made me really happy.
Then I saw this girl that I'm going out with.(there's always a girl huh?) So we're talking and she's coming over on friday and we're going to try to cook chimichangas...emphasis on the word try...anyone can make a burrito or a taco, but to fold a burrito in such a way that it won't open up when you put it in the hot grease has to be some kind of trade secret in the mexican food industry.
But I digress (I occasionally regress as well) After we finish talking I go and as I'm headed back home it re-occurs to me that nothing is going to happen with this girl... and it really brings me down. It's not that I'm looking for a relationship or anything...I just occasionally would like someone to be near who's a little more than a friend. Does that make any sense? Anyway here's the other weird part, even though I've known that nothing was going to happen with her (and I don't necessarily mean sexual although that wouldn't be bad either.) I keep asking her out and she keeps going out with me. Is that weird? Am I just a glutton for punishment, self inflicted as it may be?
Oh,and my friend E-Beth is probably going to get back with dude who was sucking all her money. Damn, she's one of my oldest friends but she can be a real dumbass sometimes. But we all make mistakes, I made mine 2 or so years ago when I got back together with my ex who's now my ex again.
So, job, women, what else can I talk (type?) about...oh! I got a new video game for this damn intelligent box I'm sitting in front of. It's Ghost Recon! I've been wanting this game for months but it's been like $60 so I have been waiting for the price to go down. Anyway, I've been playing it and it's bad ass! Running around in hills and woods shooting at bad guys (I like the sniper best). I think it would play better in multiplayer mode though... the squad movement commands are a little clunky I like the option to plan ahead like in rainbow six a little better than just going on the fly.
Rainbow Six and it's sequel Rogue Spear are my favorite games of all time and on the day that I get ghost recon, you know what comes out? Rainbow Six part 3... I'll wait a year or so before I get it...give myself time to get burned out on Ghost Recon and it's mission packs...yeah, sure... I'll wait that long, right... Ahh well,I should get off of here and try to get some sleep...I get up at 8 every morning, I need to start getting up earlier. damnitt.
Now I gotta give you a little backstory on this first: for the past3 or 4 years I haven't really taken care of my truck. I don't know why, I just let it go downhill... I kept the oil changed and all the mechanical stuff taken care of but the appearance of the truck went downhill big time, I just stopped cleaning it out and washing it. I have no reason as to why I did this but I know it was stupid...anyway, It rained today and I was driving around and I noticed that the water was beaded up in very small beads on my hood and for some reason that made me really happy.
Then I saw this girl that I'm going out with.(there's always a girl huh?) So we're talking and she's coming over on friday and we're going to try to cook chimichangas...emphasis on the word try...anyone can make a burrito or a taco, but to fold a burrito in such a way that it won't open up when you put it in the hot grease has to be some kind of trade secret in the mexican food industry.
But I digress (I occasionally regress as well) After we finish talking I go and as I'm headed back home it re-occurs to me that nothing is going to happen with this girl... and it really brings me down. It's not that I'm looking for a relationship or anything...I just occasionally would like someone to be near who's a little more than a friend. Does that make any sense? Anyway here's the other weird part, even though I've known that nothing was going to happen with her (and I don't necessarily mean sexual although that wouldn't be bad either.) I keep asking her out and she keeps going out with me. Is that weird? Am I just a glutton for punishment, self inflicted as it may be?
Oh,and my friend E-Beth is probably going to get back with dude who was sucking all her money. Damn, she's one of my oldest friends but she can be a real dumbass sometimes. But we all make mistakes, I made mine 2 or so years ago when I got back together with my ex who's now my ex again.
So, job, women, what else can I talk (type?) about...oh! I got a new video game for this damn intelligent box I'm sitting in front of. It's Ghost Recon! I've been wanting this game for months but it's been like $60 so I have been waiting for the price to go down. Anyway, I've been playing it and it's bad ass! Running around in hills and woods shooting at bad guys (I like the sniper best). I think it would play better in multiplayer mode though... the squad movement commands are a little clunky I like the option to plan ahead like in rainbow six a little better than just going on the fly.
Rainbow Six and it's sequel Rogue Spear are my favorite games of all time and on the day that I get ghost recon, you know what comes out? Rainbow Six part 3... I'll wait a year or so before I get it...give myself time to get burned out on Ghost Recon and it's mission packs...yeah, sure... I'll wait that long, right... Ahh well,I should get off of here and try to get some sleep...I get up at 8 every morning, I need to start getting up earlier. damnitt.