iNSiGHTFuL TRuTHS @ Wee HouRS oF THe a.M...
The night I wrote all of the crap in my last entry (and if you read it, major props to you!) I was online forever and my friend Jason came on around 4 a.m. and we talked. We were both awake b/c we (and a bunch others) went to Starbucks that night and hung out till I had to be home, (BLaH! I came home and my mom was asleep, so I could've stayed out later to watch them pull of the crazy prank they had planned! =( Argghh...) But anyh0w...bits and pieces of our convo were quite insightful and made me feel better.
LiLMuZikFReeK: so are you guys all about to pass out and stuff?
happicouch: everyone is cept me, coffee hit home and i cant sleep
LiLMuZikFReeK: haha i think that's my prob too, plus i'm writing a buncha crap i have in my head and need to get out
happicouch: im tryin to mellow out on aim myself...
LiLMuZikFReeK: lately i've been quite upset w/ myself b/c usually i'm an awsum possum! but i haven't been JeNN
happicouch: well you have alot to deal with, things that interfere with jenn are abundant in your life
happicouch: body altering medical treatments do have adverse effects on the brain
LiLMuZikFReeK: ohhhh, i know it! leeeett me tell you!
happicouch: haha
LiLMuZikFReeK: but it doesn't mean its not upsetting to see me NOT being me
happicouch: im sure you could write a novel
LiLMuZikFReeK: ohhhh i have been since like 2 a.m. lol
happicouch: just dont be too hard on jenn
happicouch: youre still awesome in my book
LiLMuZikFReeK: haha thanx *takes a bow*
=D YaY! Another person understands the method to my madness. It felt good hanging out w/ them that night, I was feeling more...ME! So obviously my “FRieNDS” goal is working out! =) 2 more months of my chemo...2 MORE GUYS!!! =D
Muuuuch later (around 6 a.m.)...
LiLMuZikFReeK: dude, the sun is out!
happicouch: i was bout to say the same thing
LiLMuZikFReeK: that is nuts!
LiLMuZikFReeK: i just posted my entry
happicouch: cool
happicouch: wow man
{{{LoL, he just attempted to read my insanely long novel. =P}}}
LiLMuZikFReeK: what?
happicouch: you have had much on your mind for such a lil girl
LiLMuZikFReeK: haha, i really have, i've been writing non-stop for like 4 hrs
happicouch: its funny all the intricacies we weave in our stupid little lives
happicouch: all these elaborate patterns and thoughts somehow strung together about a lot of nothing...
happicouch: and we end up with these monumental situations
LiLMuZikFReeK: YES~!
happicouch: that seem really small after we move away from em, but when were standing right there they look huge
LiLMuZikFReeK: exactly!
Right on, my friend...right on! =) I feel the exact same way, sometimes I start to analyze things and later on I'm like...dude, WHAT am I doing? And that's when I get the so-called "monumental situation" where I have a wake-up call and make changes for the better, end up muuuch happier and get back to dealing w/ reality. Anyhow...I'm done! Back to reality...
LiLMuZikFReeK: so are you guys all about to pass out and stuff?
happicouch: everyone is cept me, coffee hit home and i cant sleep
LiLMuZikFReeK: haha i think that's my prob too, plus i'm writing a buncha crap i have in my head and need to get out
happicouch: im tryin to mellow out on aim myself...
LiLMuZikFReeK: lately i've been quite upset w/ myself b/c usually i'm an awsum possum! but i haven't been JeNN
happicouch: well you have alot to deal with, things that interfere with jenn are abundant in your life
happicouch: body altering medical treatments do have adverse effects on the brain
LiLMuZikFReeK: ohhhh, i know it! leeeett me tell you!
happicouch: haha
LiLMuZikFReeK: but it doesn't mean its not upsetting to see me NOT being me
happicouch: im sure you could write a novel
LiLMuZikFReeK: ohhhh i have been since like 2 a.m. lol
happicouch: just dont be too hard on jenn
happicouch: youre still awesome in my book
LiLMuZikFReeK: haha thanx *takes a bow*
=D YaY! Another person understands the method to my madness. It felt good hanging out w/ them that night, I was feeling more...ME! So obviously my “FRieNDS” goal is working out! =) 2 more months of my chemo...2 MORE GUYS!!! =D
Muuuuch later (around 6 a.m.)...
LiLMuZikFReeK: dude, the sun is out!
happicouch: i was bout to say the same thing
LiLMuZikFReeK: that is nuts!
LiLMuZikFReeK: i just posted my entry
happicouch: cool
happicouch: wow man
{{{LoL, he just attempted to read my insanely long novel. =P}}}
LiLMuZikFReeK: what?
happicouch: you have had much on your mind for such a lil girl
LiLMuZikFReeK: haha, i really have, i've been writing non-stop for like 4 hrs
happicouch: its funny all the intricacies we weave in our stupid little lives
happicouch: all these elaborate patterns and thoughts somehow strung together about a lot of nothing...
happicouch: and we end up with these monumental situations
LiLMuZikFReeK: YES~!
happicouch: that seem really small after we move away from em, but when were standing right there they look huge
LiLMuZikFReeK: exactly!
Right on, my friend...right on! =) I feel the exact same way, sometimes I start to analyze things and later on I'm like...dude, WHAT am I doing? And that's when I get the so-called "monumental situation" where I have a wake-up call and make changes for the better, end up muuuch happier and get back to dealing w/ reality. Anyhow...I'm done! Back to reality...