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[smut_fairy]

This is a portrait of a girl
She is a child
a woman
animal
human
struggling to maintain herself
refrain herself
remain herself
she drowns in her identity
remembered not simplicitly
she will not be a friend to me
i've learned to love my enemy
...
survived her family of lies
and learned who not to trust
she puts things in perspective
is vulgar in her tongue
sacrosanct she wont take back
the words that she has sung
...
terrified as hell and scared that heaven is too white
she stays awake and slaughters sheep
each and every night
her sexuality is caught between her soul and flesh
she wants to just say no
but ends up saying yes
slams you in the throat like the patron saint of hate
and makes you donate all of her parts to her collection plate
christ will not redeem her
only scream her when he cuts her
tells her that he loves her as he rapes her and he fucks her
she speaks, destroys, and says a prayer
for her to change the girl
but shes still trapped inside the horror of her beauty world
her worth is not her weight
she hates to wear high heels
but thats all part of the crucifixion
she needs to deal
theres nothing real in plastic parts
except for plastic parts
and if you ask her to be pretty
here is where she'll start
her mouth, her tongue
her spit, her lungs
her hips are round with curve
and when she sits and talks her shit
you'll get what you deserve
...
she drinks her coke
sniffs her coke
until her eyes are black
maybe she should lie and not have told you that
her lipstick is elastic
bandages fantastic
shes hot shes cold not bought or sold
she is multi orgasmic
she swears she'll never fit the mold
because one size wont fit all
a feminist
an activist
a blasphemous evangelist
her own religious terrorist
violent scream queen vocalist
who prays to god before she wakes
my kidneys please dont fucking take