Sep 07, 2005 20:19
Just so you know that question has absolutely nothing to do with this entry. It is merely a random question that serves as a title to distract you. How clever. Yeah sure.
Anyways...I'd like to talk about a very important issue, a disease if you will in reference to the fact that is puts me at a disease. This disease is something that I like to call the BFS or best friend syndrome. Surely you have heard of it, if you have not I will briefly explain. (Though this also applies to guys my slant will be very female oriented considering that I am as my guy friends forget from time to time a girl) I believe that I am an exclusive victim of this virus. All of my best very close friends are guys. I care for them to distraction. Girls who are my friends often tease me because we're so close; saying things like how we fight like married couples, how cute we are together, how i'm in love with them (the verdict's still out on that one), and on and on. I get so fricking sick and tired of this. It is quite clear that no matter how close we are (my guys and me) one thing will never happen, not in a million years will I ever be able to date one of them. It's the BFS. While I will listen to them gush and drool over various girls i will never be that girl. While I will be there after some bitch breaks their heart i will never have the chance to either be that bitch or be a better girlfriend than said girl. They always say that nice guys finish last...it's the same with girls...or maybe it's just me. I bet it's just me. This isn't a complaint, I love these guys they are really and truly my best friends I just hate the moment and I can name the exact one for every guy that i became the "best friend" or the "good friend" there by making it a possibility to instead of having their kids i would one day be the childless, spinster "aunt/godmother" of their children.
Utter frustration because the only guys I find worthwhile don't even think of me as a girl. They know i'm a girl but I'm really just one of the guys.
This is getting to be ridiculous. Both the situation and the rambling so i'm going to go and do some calculus and wonder if...well wouldn't you like to know.