and i'm still standing here, akward and unaware.
Yea, it's friday, 2 in the afternoon and still i have yet to put some real clothes on. I've been cleaning pretty much, listening to the new silvertide cd. Dennis called a little bit ago , he offered to go downtown but I can't seem to find any euros, I really have no idea what I've done with my non-american cash fund. Really, I've been misplacing everything as of late. Well, I did stumble across sommething I sort of wish I hadn't.... hah the infamous " little black book". Yea, it's not exactly my most prized posestion, and frankly, I am a bit ashamed for even owning one. Shannon bought it for me a few summers back when the whole Brandon thing was going on and well one night i just sort of filled it out. Every name. Every single last name. This morning I flipped through its flimsey pages thinking, " My god what was I thinking.. or better yet what were they thinking?!". Heh, then smirked it off and continued with the cleaning. I really need to really go through my room, in the next 7 months, before my mother raids it and finds old notes and all sorts of crap. Oh, or the poetry books... those must be burned. lol . It's funny how so much can change is such a short span of time. If we realize it or not.
I just relized I'm damn near 18 years old.. not that that makes a difference. Well I can smoke cigars " legaly". Wait, I'm in Europe, there for no one cares.... Not that I do it on a normal bais anyway.. just when pop gives me one and we sit around watching The Who dvds and drink some baileys.
Yes, tommrow Dennis and I are going downtown I belive... or going see a movie or something. I can't find Kourtney anywhere, well since Alex is back from England, I'm sure she's forced into family time. Lukas is in some other part of Germany... I really wish I could've seen him this weekend. I wish Stephen would move back too. Than it'd be back to normal, the three of us. Not that I really mind it now just.. argh. ... I know way too much. Ok.argh.
7 months, and this is all gone. Yea, it's waiting to hit me smack dab in the face.