i want to live where soul meets body and everyone i love lives there
Welp...
I just got back from San Angelo. I had a wonderous time. I realized a lot about myself and my relationships with people in general...I think it is mostly good though, so kudos to me. I really do love Patrick, and I am beyond ecstatic to be with him again.
I came home to discover that Ashly had a bad few days...I don't blame her though. I would have a hard time leaving everything behind, even if it was only for a while. Both of us know how that can be....She keeps talking about everyone being better off without her and I really don't understand why. If it hadn't been for Ashly I would still be completely alone here. She is the closest girl I have had as close as she is in years. I honestly do not know where I would be without her. I can't wait for her to come home and me and her and Taylor can start our lives in Lubbock together. It is going to be amazing. I hope she realizes that life is going to be hell without her, for several people. I love her to death and without her in my room...well, I am going to be so lonley I could die. God, I am going to cry just writing this. Patrick's best friend left for college today and we were talking about everyone leaving and it once again hit me that she is leaving in a week....and she left a note that from what I can gather she is going to Amarillo a few days early to spend some time with her family....I want her to be able to see them before she goes but I guess I am selfish because I hate the idea of her being gone even sooner....She is worried about her being in my hair...I am worring about who will be there in the morning to tell me all the funny things I said while I was half asleep...
On top of my best friend leaving, Patrick might be moving to Austin...
He will have a great job and be in an amazing city, but that is just more distance. I know we will make it work, it doesn't stop it from being sucky.
Life is simply not a bowl of cherries, but if it wasn't for change there would be no butterflies.
"If a man does not understand your silence, he will probably not understand your words."
-...i forgot....
I just got back from San Angelo. I had a wonderous time. I realized a lot about myself and my relationships with people in general...I think it is mostly good though, so kudos to me. I really do love Patrick, and I am beyond ecstatic to be with him again.
I came home to discover that Ashly had a bad few days...I don't blame her though. I would have a hard time leaving everything behind, even if it was only for a while. Both of us know how that can be....She keeps talking about everyone being better off without her and I really don't understand why. If it hadn't been for Ashly I would still be completely alone here. She is the closest girl I have had as close as she is in years. I honestly do not know where I would be without her. I can't wait for her to come home and me and her and Taylor can start our lives in Lubbock together. It is going to be amazing. I hope she realizes that life is going to be hell without her, for several people. I love her to death and without her in my room...well, I am going to be so lonley I could die. God, I am going to cry just writing this. Patrick's best friend left for college today and we were talking about everyone leaving and it once again hit me that she is leaving in a week....and she left a note that from what I can gather she is going to Amarillo a few days early to spend some time with her family....I want her to be able to see them before she goes but I guess I am selfish because I hate the idea of her being gone even sooner....She is worried about her being in my hair...I am worring about who will be there in the morning to tell me all the funny things I said while I was half asleep...
On top of my best friend leaving, Patrick might be moving to Austin...
He will have a great job and be in an amazing city, but that is just more distance. I know we will make it work, it doesn't stop it from being sucky.
Life is simply not a bowl of cherries, but if it wasn't for change there would be no butterflies.
"If a man does not understand your silence, he will probably not understand your words."
-...i forgot....