love evolves

[smurfinconverse]

ashly and taylor are back. me and ashly had a good talk about stuff and i think everything is going well, i am just not looking forward to being without her for six months. so i am excited and kind of disheartened because it looks like i might be heading to lubbock a few months early. it is a really good idea as far as apartments and getting everything ready for tech etc. etc. but it is yet again another move from somewhere i have set roots in and i do not look forward to leaving clayton at all. i have faith in our relationship, i just know it will be hard. i can only invest my all and be here whenever i can. i am still missing san angelo. i really hope everything works out with ramada. my last day at the cafe was the 12th and im kind of sad because even though it hasnt been the same since rudy has been gone, i still have alot of emotional ties to alot of the people there and though its time to move on it is hard for me to deal with being torn from them. i feel like its going to be another campus corral thing. the people i miss, the thing i miss. oh well. what can you do? ive been looking at distant friend and aquainance's spaces lately and its been rather reminescent of many mixed emotions. im pretty happy with everything right now. just missing a few key people in my life i wish i could have back: kailey, jd, samantha, emilio without the strings, jessica, tyler, and ive been missing brittina alot lately for some reason. strangely enough i long for the days when i didnt know that my childhood sucked, with courtney and amanda and alex and amber and brittney and that simple life that is childhood. funny how you never realize all the terror when its right in front of your eyes. i guess i wouldnt change anything though, because then who has a clue who i would be?
well with a tip of the top hat and the wave of a beauty queen i say goodbye to you lovely people that care enough about my life (or lack there of) to read the sentences i compose about it.