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man i know i sy it again and again but i miis lj..terribly!
i love it how everyon e has myspace but sometimes u just need to get away..
live journal is like my dirty lil secret and i can talk all the trash i want cuz only us kool, ppl still have it!
u know?!
haha
so my life
its great
back home with my mom
new 2006 black focus
bad ass job with awsome discounts and lil work
family great
friends great
new addition to my family..he's 2 and a half pounds, looks like a reindeer, and anwsers to the name MOCO
and as for boys..well tahst always predictable
i thought i found this guy
everything about him was far from perfect...he met none of my qualifications...NONE
but DAMN that kid could sweet talk and make me feel like a princess, he showed me off, he said all the right things, so of course i gave in, fuck it tho....i didnt let myself fall for him too hard becouse i guess in the back of my mind i was expecting this....it was sooo predictable, not even i was suprised which i guess eased the pain cuz im not hurting...at all! im just mad now...i wnat him but for all the wrong reasons, just so i can reject him now.
when am i going to get past the games
seriously!!!
we talked about being faithful and funny thing is i wasnt.....its like i wanted to play this game i absolutely hate...liek i had to show my freinds i wasnt falling for him becouse when i did take the big step and go all out for his birthday they gave me shit saying he was all wrong and was using me....
all this made me realize tho that noone close to me is ready for me to calm down...everyone went thru a shock, like i had crossed over to the other side just becouse i would ditch them for one night or would call him before we went out...
am i not alowed to be happy like that?!
or is it just not for me?!
i honestly couldnt say if i ahve more fun partying it up or being in a relationship only becouse the single life is all ive ever known.
everyone says i have it perfect,i dont fall for guys, im always out, and im the queen of drunk hook ups but i wnat to know more... i wnat a boy with me
i want flowers on my car
i want a date to family events
i want someone to take care of me when im sick
i want someone to take care of me when im trashed
i want someone to call my freinds when they are worried about me
i want it all dammit
but obviously thast not meant for me...now at least
ah fuck it why do i even stress...im happy in this moment...why do i need more?!
its like lil mermaid...she had it all under the sea but the stupid bitch wnated more and look how she had a story book ending...maybe i should just push for more?!
or is that just me bing greedy!?
blagh
on another note...i miss all my lj freinds!!!
i do i do!!
and if anyone loves me enough, i would love someoen to make my lj all purty and more recent...yeah?!
i hope life is treating each and ever one of you welll!!!
o n another thing...sorry im just soo full of shit to say today!!
me n a coworker got to talking and she brought up a good pt...a shallow one but it makes sense..
she told me to find someone that loves me more than i love them that way i would always have the upper hand...find someone not as cute, not as rich, not and superior that way i would never have the chance of getting my heart broken but that only seems like settling for less...but in the long haul i know i would get more out of that then i ever would with the guys i see now... i mean if a guy knew i was the best he could get i could ahve him wrapped around my finger...my slave, my love, my everything...just in an AVERAGE pakage...but i wnat more...i wnat a hott guy that i feel honored to have, someone who the laides chase, someone that i ahve to beg for attention...maybe i do wnat the worst
my mom told me the same thing...not really to settle but to findsomeone that loves me more but that just seems selfish....
ur view?!
ok ladies n gents im done for today
it was lovely tho
hahaha
ta ta
marisa
i love it how everyon e has myspace but sometimes u just need to get away..
live journal is like my dirty lil secret and i can talk all the trash i want cuz only us kool, ppl still have it!
u know?!
haha
so my life
its great
back home with my mom
new 2006 black focus
bad ass job with awsome discounts and lil work
family great
friends great
new addition to my family..he's 2 and a half pounds, looks like a reindeer, and anwsers to the name MOCO
and as for boys..well tahst always predictable
i thought i found this guy
everything about him was far from perfect...he met none of my qualifications...NONE
but DAMN that kid could sweet talk and make me feel like a princess, he showed me off, he said all the right things, so of course i gave in, fuck it tho....i didnt let myself fall for him too hard becouse i guess in the back of my mind i was expecting this....it was sooo predictable, not even i was suprised which i guess eased the pain cuz im not hurting...at all! im just mad now...i wnat him but for all the wrong reasons, just so i can reject him now.
when am i going to get past the games
seriously!!!
we talked about being faithful and funny thing is i wasnt.....its like i wanted to play this game i absolutely hate...liek i had to show my freinds i wasnt falling for him becouse when i did take the big step and go all out for his birthday they gave me shit saying he was all wrong and was using me....
all this made me realize tho that noone close to me is ready for me to calm down...everyone went thru a shock, like i had crossed over to the other side just becouse i would ditch them for one night or would call him before we went out...
am i not alowed to be happy like that?!
or is it just not for me?!
i honestly couldnt say if i ahve more fun partying it up or being in a relationship only becouse the single life is all ive ever known.
everyone says i have it perfect,i dont fall for guys, im always out, and im the queen of drunk hook ups but i wnat to know more... i wnat a boy with me
i want flowers on my car
i want a date to family events
i want someone to take care of me when im sick
i want someone to take care of me when im trashed
i want someone to call my freinds when they are worried about me
i want it all dammit
but obviously thast not meant for me...now at least
ah fuck it why do i even stress...im happy in this moment...why do i need more?!
its like lil mermaid...she had it all under the sea but the stupid bitch wnated more and look how she had a story book ending...maybe i should just push for more?!
or is that just me bing greedy!?
blagh
on another note...i miss all my lj freinds!!!
i do i do!!
and if anyone loves me enough, i would love someoen to make my lj all purty and more recent...yeah?!
i hope life is treating each and ever one of you welll!!!
o n another thing...sorry im just soo full of shit to say today!!
me n a coworker got to talking and she brought up a good pt...a shallow one but it makes sense..
she told me to find someone that loves me more than i love them that way i would always have the upper hand...find someone not as cute, not as rich, not and superior that way i would never have the chance of getting my heart broken but that only seems like settling for less...but in the long haul i know i would get more out of that then i ever would with the guys i see now... i mean if a guy knew i was the best he could get i could ahve him wrapped around my finger...my slave, my love, my everything...just in an AVERAGE pakage...but i wnat more...i wnat a hott guy that i feel honored to have, someone who the laides chase, someone that i ahve to beg for attention...maybe i do wnat the worst
my mom told me the same thing...not really to settle but to findsomeone that loves me more but that just seems selfish....
ur view?!
ok ladies n gents im done for today
it was lovely tho
hahaha
ta ta
marisa