HATE ME TODAY
So I decided to update because I haven’t in like a year, well maybe it hasn’t been a year but it’s been I long as time. I don’t know where to start well schools out thank god. I passed is the good news but bad news it wasn’t the most impressive grades, I know I can do a lot better but I just kind of gave up that year. Which I really shouldn’t of done because it was a really important year, I just hope I didn't srew up to bad and get fuck when college time comes because I know they look at your junior year, but my senior year is not only going to be fun and the best but I'm planning and hoping its a good academic year too. Man my legs hurt like I think im still getting growing pains at f-ing 16 strange if you ask me.< I know that was random but they hurt. So next seniors have obviously graduated and I know its going to make me sound so gay but I cried. Yeah I know but what ever I was bummed because I wasn’t going to have Andie at lunch or in the hallway meeting, even though I can see her like everyday cuz we live like 5 houses away but, So summer is here, it started good besides working on the last day of school, first day of summer what did I do oh yeah went to CEDAR POINT, and it was fun, it was Ashley’s b-day so we went it was good time. Then we came home had a day of normalcy, then off to KOA/camping for a week. Andie's parents treat for her grad party thanks to both Ash and Andie, that was kool pretty chill hung out went water sliding on the HIPPO that was sweet, went go karting and swimming and a lot of fire watch over all it was sweet, pretty kool and chill no fight or almost none. And after that we came home and it was back to reality, me and Andie both had to work the day we came back which sucked because we asked for those days off in are vacations request but I guess not, and I didn’t even know I was supposed to work no one called to tell me when he knows I'm on vacation, I was pissed and wanted to just not go in but I cant do that im to nice and I need to keep that job till I get another one. And I’m sorry this entry is soooo long but I gots lots to tell. GOSH MY LEGS HURT, man I don’t need to grow anymore stop it already. SO this is really long and its taking me forever that i actually stop and saved it and said ide finish it later so thats what im doing now. So ill skip some of the minor things and get done, so pretty much life is full of sleeping working and hanging out. But thats the thing i love being around my friends and i dont have many, and lately when we hang out i just dont feel rite and its not like i dont like them, i just like im not wanted there. Its just that it seems all there ever is now is attitude and noone knows when your joking or they know but they dont take it like that and get all mad and defensive. I'm just tired, i love yall but i cant take it, i tired of being wallked on and talked to like shit, and talked to like i fucking dumb. YOUR NOT BETTER THAN EVERYONE, get that in your head it will save you some drama. And its not only friends that are treating me like shit, its work, like this new bitch connie who thinks she knows everything and thinks she owns the store after working ther for like 2 weeks, get over yourself lady and have some fucking respect, and dont expecpt me to do anything for you when u talk to me like i am the scum of the earth. And home life is agervating to, it feels like im always on my own now, parents are gone when i get up, then i go to work and come home they are either in bed or out, i have to fend for my self, and when they are around it seems i have something to do, if its not work its something else. I just want it to be "normal", if there is such a thing. Over all things have been good but lately getting bad. And i dont want my friends to go away but id o want some respect and to be treated better, and i want to feel like IM not being used, because no matter what anyone says i dont use people and i greatly appreciate everything that they do and they know this and are paid back for it. So basically to end this so it doesnt go on for ever, i think we need to sit down and have a grown up conversation with no fighting and getting mad, where we can just lay everything out. Tell each other what were thinking and feeling. SO please lets. Ok LOVE YOU GUYS dont ever want to see you go!!!!!