passive's stuck in my head!
some day i will walk away and say
"you dissapoint me maybe your better off this way."
got home from work about an hour ago. Nick said that hopefully in a few weeks ill be moved to phones.
"You must be hot, cuz your cheese is melted!" ... yea thats the call out for the day.
I've noticed alot of the guys think there really original where as most of them ive already heard a hundred times already during the day.
anyways.. after i put this pay check in the bank.. i should have something like 37 bucks in there... adn my next pay check should make it about 60... which i guess will be good enough for this month.
I decided I'm only taking out 5$$ a week for my own spending money untill i hit 200$ in my bank account.
Sorry molly. I'll pay you back then i promise. But i really need to save up for september so my parents will let me take my lessons.
anyway. I'm wicked bore today. and my life isnt at all exciting lately. it hasnt been for a long time... which sucks....
but yeah.. school starts soon.. and i really dont want it too.
basically it comes to this :
>>>> I like school.. lessons wise.
>>>> I hate school cuz all the teachers instantly learn i have an IEP and then treat me like a fucking retard no matter what kind of grades i get!!!
yeah.. i miss freshman year when i wasnt in sped and the teachers would talk to me about how smart they though i was.
Now the see im in fucking sped and say "well.. only do so much you can handle." or they talk to me like a child unlike the rest of the kids and decide they should explain everything REALLL slow.
then they pat themselves on the back adn think their patience and lectures are the reasons i get A's.
FUCK YOU!
i hate being underestimated. and i hate being looked down upon. While most kids in highschool get to choose their own schedules and have relaxed classes, I'm treated like a child. My classes are chosen for me and someone is always peering over my shoulder to make sure i'm really working.
Okay.. first off get the reason straight why im actually there. I dont have a learning disability. Im not ADD, ADHD or anything.
I was sick. I was absent 58 times and tardy 65. I had fucking migraines. Why? cuz im a fuckup and didnt know exactly how to take care of my self at all.
apparently you cant go on a diet completely based upon sugar haha. so yea i got over it and my attendence got better.
but all the sped teachers except my case manager didnt know that. So they all though i had some retarded antisocial defect. and whenever i raised my hand to answer a question they acted like it was a fucking miracle that i could possibly find the correct answer.
The case manager Mrs. D is an ass all together. I cant stand her. She downgraded me on everything throughout the year for it being late. IF I WAS FUCKING ABSENT ITS NOT FUCKING LATE!
but yea i held my temper until the end of the year when i finally told her to go fuck herself. Burnt another bridge i guess.
but yeah.. i cant stand school now.
I cant stand that i have to ask permission to take any classes. WTF!!!!!
I took the fucking IQ tests. Im scored high-above average on most. I'm not fucking stupid.
Yet when im at school thats all im made to feel. Stupid.
I really wish I could just graduate this year instead of being ayear behind most of my friends. I'm sick of dealing with all the bullshit.
"you dissapoint me maybe your better off this way."
got home from work about an hour ago. Nick said that hopefully in a few weeks ill be moved to phones.
"You must be hot, cuz your cheese is melted!" ... yea thats the call out for the day.
I've noticed alot of the guys think there really original where as most of them ive already heard a hundred times already during the day.
anyways.. after i put this pay check in the bank.. i should have something like 37 bucks in there... adn my next pay check should make it about 60... which i guess will be good enough for this month.
I decided I'm only taking out 5$$ a week for my own spending money untill i hit 200$ in my bank account.
Sorry molly. I'll pay you back then i promise. But i really need to save up for september so my parents will let me take my lessons.
anyway. I'm wicked bore today. and my life isnt at all exciting lately. it hasnt been for a long time... which sucks....
but yeah.. school starts soon.. and i really dont want it too.
basically it comes to this :
>>>> I like school.. lessons wise.
>>>> I hate school cuz all the teachers instantly learn i have an IEP and then treat me like a fucking retard no matter what kind of grades i get!!!
yeah.. i miss freshman year when i wasnt in sped and the teachers would talk to me about how smart they though i was.
Now the see im in fucking sped and say "well.. only do so much you can handle." or they talk to me like a child unlike the rest of the kids and decide they should explain everything REALLL slow.
then they pat themselves on the back adn think their patience and lectures are the reasons i get A's.
FUCK YOU!
i hate being underestimated. and i hate being looked down upon. While most kids in highschool get to choose their own schedules and have relaxed classes, I'm treated like a child. My classes are chosen for me and someone is always peering over my shoulder to make sure i'm really working.
Okay.. first off get the reason straight why im actually there. I dont have a learning disability. Im not ADD, ADHD or anything.
I was sick. I was absent 58 times and tardy 65. I had fucking migraines. Why? cuz im a fuckup and didnt know exactly how to take care of my self at all.
apparently you cant go on a diet completely based upon sugar haha. so yea i got over it and my attendence got better.
but all the sped teachers except my case manager didnt know that. So they all though i had some retarded antisocial defect. and whenever i raised my hand to answer a question they acted like it was a fucking miracle that i could possibly find the correct answer.
The case manager Mrs. D is an ass all together. I cant stand her. She downgraded me on everything throughout the year for it being late. IF I WAS FUCKING ABSENT ITS NOT FUCKING LATE!
but yea i held my temper until the end of the year when i finally told her to go fuck herself. Burnt another bridge i guess.
but yeah.. i cant stand school now.
I cant stand that i have to ask permission to take any classes. WTF!!!!!
I took the fucking IQ tests. Im scored high-above average on most. I'm not fucking stupid.
Yet when im at school thats all im made to feel. Stupid.
I really wish I could just graduate this year instead of being ayear behind most of my friends. I'm sick of dealing with all the bullshit.