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[smurf_gone_wild]

So Nathans Funeral was today. It was sooo sad. Like going up and looking at him, I want to think he's goin to get up. He just looks like he's sleeping. I want this all be a dream, but it's not. He's never goin to get up again. He looked sooo peaceful. I knew a lot of people there. There weren't almost enough seats. He was very very loved. As soon as they started the Lords Prayer. I could not stop crying. Your always goin to remember your first funeral. Always, I will never forget it either. In side was his Obituary...I was reading it and it became blurry, I couldn't contain myself. I don't like to cry in front of people, that's just who I am, but damn I couldn't stop this time. It was just horrible. I was crying so much the man sittin next to me had to ask if I was going to be okay. As soon as I started to cry, he'd get all choked up too, it's not like I wanted to make everyone around me cry, but wow, it was a VERY emotional day. Looking at him laying in his casket, it was so hard to grasp that just, a few months ago I was up in his room with my sister talking to him and he was telling me how he can't wait till he can play baseball again. His baseball coach was there too, and he started to cry while he was doing the rememberance. It was very hard for everyone. I think it really hit me when they closed his casket and took him out to the Hurst. It was all over. There isn't a thing I can do but pray for his family.

God Bless you Nathan, we all miss you and we will see you soon.