Praying but I'm still an angel away
So once in awhile, I would read something so good, or in some cases, so bad, that I'd feel the dire need to blog about it. This time it's a little bit different, it's not something new that I've read, but a re-read. And it's a bit weird blogging about yaoi, since it's like blogging about porn, which is a little tmi.
And maybe it's because I'm a little moody and hormonal right now that I feel the need to blog about it.
So I reread Mujihi na Otoko (A Cruel Man?) for the nth time today. As always, it's a good read, but unlike the other times, it grips me like a vice today, and got me crazy emotional.
Maybe I didn't read too much into it, pass all the usual smut and pretty art, all the time before. Because the series portrays truely devastating longing, unrequited love. Nanao's inability to open himself, to commit is lonely and hearbreaking. The author portrays him with this perpetual sadness and longing, and it shows in every line. The unrequited love is beautiful and intense.
The misunderstanding between the character is frustrating, but real, due to Nanao's insecurities and Aikawa's stubborness. They're always colliding, and always ending up a mess, because neither understands each other's feelings. As a reader, that frustrates me to no-end, but it's so so so worth it when they finally know each other.
What got me the most was Nanao's longing. It aches to see his insecurities and closed-mindedness. The way he restrains himself to protect himself. And it seems cliche and typical in yaoi, or any romance manga in general, but it's something everyone can relate to--the fear of committment, of changes, of losing control, of being in the unknown. Because love is like that, unknown--it can be fantastic, and it can be a downright mess.
The artist did a great job in terms of art and monologues and dialogues. It's such a put-together work, and I can't believe I didn't appreciate it the first billion times I read it.
And maybe it's because I'm a little moody and hormonal right now that I feel the need to blog about it.
So I reread Mujihi na Otoko (A Cruel Man?) for the nth time today. As always, it's a good read, but unlike the other times, it grips me like a vice today, and got me crazy emotional.
Maybe I didn't read too much into it, pass all the usual smut and pretty art, all the time before. Because the series portrays truely devastating longing, unrequited love. Nanao's inability to open himself, to commit is lonely and hearbreaking. The author portrays him with this perpetual sadness and longing, and it shows in every line. The unrequited love is beautiful and intense.
The misunderstanding between the character is frustrating, but real, due to Nanao's insecurities and Aikawa's stubborness. They're always colliding, and always ending up a mess, because neither understands each other's feelings. As a reader, that frustrates me to no-end, but it's so so so worth it when they finally know each other.
What got me the most was Nanao's longing. It aches to see his insecurities and closed-mindedness. The way he restrains himself to protect himself. And it seems cliche and typical in yaoi, or any romance manga in general, but it's something everyone can relate to--the fear of committment, of changes, of losing control, of being in the unknown. Because love is like that, unknown--it can be fantastic, and it can be a downright mess.
The artist did a great job in terms of art and monologues and dialogues. It's such a put-together work, and I can't believe I didn't appreciate it the first billion times I read it.