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expectation: to get A for math no matter what test it is and hopefully try to do h3 math
reality: probability of passing a simple math test is about 5%
expectation: to be a fantastic and spectacular assistant CG rep and President of Podium (Drama)
reality: i hate doing the class leaders report and i'm not the popular vote to become president
expectation: run 2.4km within 16 min 30 sec
reality: ran 1.8km within 16 min 30 sec
expectation: do awesome quality project work drafts
reality: a piece of paper with a few lines on it
expectation: revise my work every night in order to achieve my needed straight As
reality: "wake me up in 5 minutes" immediately fall asleep *alarm rings at 6am* "fuck"
some things which I feel oh so depressed about, especially the first one because that just gave me a sense of hopelessness. i really want to do well for math and i see that potential in me. straight after O Level A Math paper, i told myself, "you are not letting yourself go through the same mistakes again - don't know a topic? nevermind, it'll work out in the end." i promised that i was going to attempt to do h3 math. well, that's never going to happen now because i wasn't selected for the math talent programme which eventually leads up to h3 math, due to my horrendous test results for my pop quizzes and such. i told myself today, "the best is yet to be" and i hope that is true. nevermind the fact that i'm not from AC. as long as there's something to motivate me, then so be it. can i get straight As? definitely. will i be able to do it if i continue living like this? no. I NEED TO CHANGE LIKE NOW. SIGH I WANT MY OLD LIFE BACK.
I shall go do pw now - something I was supposed to do like an hour ago -_- FML.
reality: probability of passing a simple math test is about 5%
expectation: to be a fantastic and spectacular assistant CG rep and President of Podium (Drama)
reality: i hate doing the class leaders report and i'm not the popular vote to become president
expectation: run 2.4km within 16 min 30 sec
reality: ran 1.8km within 16 min 30 sec
expectation: do awesome quality project work drafts
reality: a piece of paper with a few lines on it
expectation: revise my work every night in order to achieve my needed straight As
reality: "wake me up in 5 minutes" immediately fall asleep *alarm rings at 6am* "fuck"
some things which I feel oh so depressed about, especially the first one because that just gave me a sense of hopelessness. i really want to do well for math and i see that potential in me. straight after O Level A Math paper, i told myself, "you are not letting yourself go through the same mistakes again - don't know a topic? nevermind, it'll work out in the end." i promised that i was going to attempt to do h3 math. well, that's never going to happen now because i wasn't selected for the math talent programme which eventually leads up to h3 math, due to my horrendous test results for my pop quizzes and such. i told myself today, "the best is yet to be" and i hope that is true. nevermind the fact that i'm not from AC. as long as there's something to motivate me, then so be it. can i get straight As? definitely. will i be able to do it if i continue living like this? no. I NEED TO CHANGE LIKE NOW. SIGH I WANT MY OLD LIFE BACK.
I shall go do pw now - something I was supposed to do like an hour ago -_- FML.