Feb 06, 2005 21:20
so.... it's over ... after 5 months of paradise and 3 months of less than paradise and it really sucks, everytime im not doing anything i reach over to pick up the phone and make a call, btu then i have to pull back and be like "wait, can't do that" it's depressing every time i reach for it too... and what's worse is that this pain is the lesser of two evils .... "it's a catch 22" ... that makes me think about her too, so i decided to write in my LJ because i heard from somebody that it helps when you feel bad ... kind of is , but not really. it was hell erasing the messages she left for me in the calendar and what not. everyone whos still with me says it'll get better with time, which i am sure it will. i just wish it was easier and quicker.
now that that is done, called up my old boss at blockbuster for a job again, and he said he would have a position open in a week and a half and he would like it if i came back ( which is surprising because i gave no two weeks before i lfet last time) and i start 6 classes tomorrow.... and this brings me back to her again :(
ok well i guess it helped, anybody who reads this you can comment as long as you don't make fun of me for being a sentimental idiot about this ~peace~