look whos back.. oh yeah, its me
so I have been telling myself over and over that i am going to write in this stupid thing.. but thats always when I'm NOT at a computer and then by the time i'm actually at one i don't feel like doing it anymore. blah. oh well so I can't really remember all the crazy deep topics I wanted to write about.. but thats prolly for the better because i'm sure if i did this post would be 10000 pages long. hmm anyways so lets see I'm pretty damn bored right now. My family is in California until tomorrow so I am home alone. They were gone for like a weekish.. but nope, no parties. because if you ever have a party at your house you never actually get to have fun because you are too busy worrying about the house. aw well. kinda gave me a taste of what its gonna be like when I move out though.. kinda crazy.. kinda cool.. pretty boring. haha.
ahh well so I have a new philosophy on friends and going out and such.. For the past like... month I have been trying to get a hold of people to see what they are doing so we can hang out or something.. but everytime I did they would either just ignore me or say there was nothing going on. or if there was they were already there and nobody bothered to invite me.. so after all this trying I have decided to give up on all them and just sit back and wait for people to call me. so if your reading this.. good.. this is the first step in actually caring about me haha next.. call me or message me or something if you ever wanna hang out. the bad part about this is that nobody ever does/will so I need to make more friends. but I can't do that.. its just crazy shyness sucks :-/. hopefully once school starts again I can randomly meet someone awesome. hopefully....
speaking of that.. I guess I have to give myself some credit.. I mean once I am actually hanging out with someone and its 1on1 I can do pretty good.. but I can't and don't think I will ever be able to just go up to some random (girl or boy) and just be like "hey! whats up? lets be friends" or some bs like that.. its bad because I hardly ever meet new people because of it.. but I just need someone to help me and I can do it... then I can take it from there. blah. lets hope something good comes along soon.. this is getting stupid.
yeah so after rereading this entry.. this was pretty long about absolutely nothing.. I may try and remember what else I wanted to rant about and come back to this later tonight.. we'll see.
oh and p.s. Why is it that when I finally DO meet cool people that I could hang out with... its over the Internet and they live in Florida? (you know who you are) blahhhhh
ahh well so I have a new philosophy on friends and going out and such.. For the past like... month I have been trying to get a hold of people to see what they are doing so we can hang out or something.. but everytime I did they would either just ignore me or say there was nothing going on. or if there was they were already there and nobody bothered to invite me.. so after all this trying I have decided to give up on all them and just sit back and wait for people to call me. so if your reading this.. good.. this is the first step in actually caring about me haha next.. call me or message me or something if you ever wanna hang out. the bad part about this is that nobody ever does/will so I need to make more friends. but I can't do that.. its just crazy shyness sucks :-/. hopefully once school starts again I can randomly meet someone awesome. hopefully....
speaking of that.. I guess I have to give myself some credit.. I mean once I am actually hanging out with someone and its 1on1 I can do pretty good.. but I can't and don't think I will ever be able to just go up to some random (girl or boy) and just be like "hey! whats up? lets be friends" or some bs like that.. its bad because I hardly ever meet new people because of it.. but I just need someone to help me and I can do it... then I can take it from there. blah. lets hope something good comes along soon.. this is getting stupid.
yeah so after rereading this entry.. this was pretty long about absolutely nothing.. I may try and remember what else I wanted to rant about and come back to this later tonight.. we'll see.
oh and p.s. Why is it that when I finally DO meet cool people that I could hang out with... its over the Internet and they live in Florida? (you know who you are) blahhhhh