And men say women play games.....
Monday evening, Paul and I were sitting in his living room just hanging out talking. He sits there and asks "how I do it". Well he was referring to my being able to make him stop being angry or forget entirely about his anger with me and start falling for me again. I said I dont do anything to him and I am just myself. Well he then started saying how he is falling for me and he can't stop himself. Thursday he decides that he didnt realize what he was getting himself into and that he's overwhelmed and doesnt want to ask me to alter my lifestyle to accomodate his comfort zone. He basically doesn't like the fact that I am as social as I am. I mean my friends love and adore me and they are constantly coming by or calling and the like. Which I will admit does, at times, become annoying. I have been trying to limit it since we've been dating since day one. I mean I turn my phone on silent or off and I try leaving it behind a lot of the time. That doesn't seem to be enough. I am in love with him, and I have never loved another guy quite like this. It's completely different from my past "loves". I can't sleep, I can't eat..... I get butterflies. Last night when he came over (after we broke up) to play foosball, I just got knots in my stomach and was obviously in defense mode since he had dumped me hours before this. I went in my room, and started styling my hair. I was going to go out with a couple of friends to get my mind off of everything. My cousin came into the room and was talking to me and I started to weep yet again. All I wanted to do was hold him and kiss him like we used to, and I just couldnt. He left while I was in my room without saying bye. He told my cousin and his roomie that he couldn't handle seeing me leave and that he said he wasnt happy and that he just wanted basically the same thing as me... I mean if we both are saying the same things to other people, then why not say them to eachother... I think we should talk...but where to begin.