heavy on my heart.
this has been on my mind and on my heart pretty heavily lately. No words that i could say, no action that i could show, could, in any way, express how much my friends mean to me. i was thinking about song lyrics and my head, the one displayed on my page; it says "i have seen so many people slip away, and it hurts." I have definately reached a point where i am noticing friends that were so dear to me, go the way of the buffalo. i'm not trying to let it get me down, because that is simply a fact of life. Certain people in particular i have been thinking about, it really does hurt. No matter what friends i do lose in the course of my life, i will still do what the song suggests, and, "know what i'm about." I will not let a change in my life effect my life decisions, morals, standards, and convictions, in any way. To all the friends that are still here with me, and care for me, and will support me, no matter how many times i fuck up, i could never tell you enough how much your love, and or, friendship, is appreciated. i do make mistakes, i have probably made more than i should, or maybe, in the grand scheme of things, maybe not. Human nature is to fuck up. not be perfect. I am always striving for improvement. Believe it or not, i am growing up, each and every day. whether you are a past friend, who i have lost touch with, and have impacted me, and cared for, no matter what, i still love you, if you return, i hope you do, and if not, thank you for the memories and good times. i will cherish everything. If you are still around, again, it means the world. Maybe i will embelish later. but for now, i am tired. goodnight.
-matt
-matt