KINDA LONG!!!!!!!
just think about it.
by this time is 6 months...
i'll be in a whole different world.
a whole new city.
a whole new school.
a whole new home.
so close...
yet so far.
nothing will be the same.
not the people.
not the house.
not the school.
not the city.
and just to think...
everything i have here,
will be put aside.
people moving away.
new friendships...
cut short.
old friendships...
struggling to last.
but to be honest,
i can't wait to go
i've been waiting to move to San Francisco for a really long time now.
and the day i get to finally spend my first nite there as a true San Franciscan...
will be the day i've worked for...
these next two passages are something that i've come up with out of the blue. both are inspired by events and certain people around me. this is the first time i've put something i've wrote up here. i'm not asking for anything. just wanted to show another part of the alilut most of you know. thought i'd start with something simple. please don't judge me on what you read here. because if you do, you really don't know me...
Away in my room,
The thoughts in my head
Consume each minute of my life.
Thinking about tomorrow
And the pain it brings.
My heart tears as i continue to think.
What will make it go away?
The tears will come no more.
My emotion is run out.
Doesn't seem there's hope for me.
But i won't give in now.
I'm only just as happy as everyone else thinks i am.
The pain will someday cease
But for now the suffering continues
When the madness stops,
I'll be alone.
Living on the edge and out of control
But the world won't let me slow down
Sometimes i feel, like i am drunk behind the wheel
...losing complete control
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
i never thought i would change my opinion again,
but you moved me in a way that you'll never know.
you're the kind that likes to play games with my mind,
but you confuse me in a way that you'll never know.
you lift me up,
just to let me down;
but worst of all,
you'll never know.
watching every motion,
hearing every word,
knowing every truth.
watch me, i'll keep waiting,
still anticipating...hope.
but i know, i've been a fool for too long.
obsessed.
with our friendship that no one else would touch.
it didnt work out;
you left without a trace.
never knowing when you'd come back,
i was forced to let you go.
don't.
don't pretend you can't see me.
cause i see the truth in your eyes.
shadows have fallen,
all over me.
another night and these thoughts got me down.
misery.
i really could use your company.
since its been gone,
it aint been the same.
misery.
why must i make a fool of me?
seems its my destiny, to bathe in the waters of misery
...i've been down this road before
misery
by this time is 6 months...
i'll be in a whole different world.
a whole new city.
a whole new school.
a whole new home.
so close...
yet so far.
nothing will be the same.
not the people.
not the house.
not the school.
not the city.
and just to think...
everything i have here,
will be put aside.
people moving away.
new friendships...
cut short.
old friendships...
struggling to last.
but to be honest,
i can't wait to go
i've been waiting to move to San Francisco for a really long time now.
and the day i get to finally spend my first nite there as a true San Franciscan...
will be the day i've worked for...
these next two passages are something that i've come up with out of the blue. both are inspired by events and certain people around me. this is the first time i've put something i've wrote up here. i'm not asking for anything. just wanted to show another part of the alilut most of you know. thought i'd start with something simple. please don't judge me on what you read here. because if you do, you really don't know me...
Away in my room,
The thoughts in my head
Consume each minute of my life.
Thinking about tomorrow
And the pain it brings.
My heart tears as i continue to think.
What will make it go away?
The tears will come no more.
My emotion is run out.
Doesn't seem there's hope for me.
But i won't give in now.
I'm only just as happy as everyone else thinks i am.
The pain will someday cease
But for now the suffering continues
When the madness stops,
I'll be alone.
Living on the edge and out of control
But the world won't let me slow down
Sometimes i feel, like i am drunk behind the wheel
...losing complete control
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
i never thought i would change my opinion again,
but you moved me in a way that you'll never know.
you're the kind that likes to play games with my mind,
but you confuse me in a way that you'll never know.
you lift me up,
just to let me down;
but worst of all,
you'll never know.
watching every motion,
hearing every word,
knowing every truth.
watch me, i'll keep waiting,
still anticipating...hope.
but i know, i've been a fool for too long.
obsessed.
with our friendship that no one else would touch.
it didnt work out;
you left without a trace.
never knowing when you'd come back,
i was forced to let you go.
don't.
don't pretend you can't see me.
cause i see the truth in your eyes.
shadows have fallen,
all over me.
another night and these thoughts got me down.
misery.
i really could use your company.
since its been gone,
it aint been the same.
misery.
why must i make a fool of me?
seems its my destiny, to bathe in the waters of misery
...i've been down this road before
misery