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well i was trying to take all my sorrows out and by doing that i was thinking i was right about some things in the area... but i kinda got enlightened last night. I disagree with all that was said last night, but i wouldnt really know, it could be true... but if it is then... i dont even know
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well, i must say, you sure do leave some great comments;) i'm glad you commented cuz it gave me a reason to add you without thinking "ahhh, he's gonna think i'm freaky and imposing cuz we barely talk"...so definitely, you're added and i hope you don't mind:)
you know, "you're only just as happy, as everyone else thinks you are". Not to sound sad, but I don't want to lie either. There is no way I could honestly tell you I'm incredibly happy with the way things are. there's a lot of stuff I'm still contemplating, letting go, trying to work through. I am happy I have the person by my side to do all that with, but at the same time, recently, it's been hell staying here-a year and a month. Yet there is no where else I'd rather be. And I'm sure you feel the same way about Megan. I love her as a friend too by the way-she's such a sweetheart:) And I know you know that, and it's clear why you don't wanna let her go-and no one's saying you have to. And you should know she doesn't make you out to be the wrong-doer in the relationship-the bad guy. you're not. Yes, you're a boy and it's agreed all boys are dumb...just a rule sorry;) but you're not the bad guy. Megan loves and cares for you because of the person you are. She likes the crazy fun-loving guy who dances around on the rink and pretends he's in the Olympics-it's how she first noticed you. But she also loves the person you are as a whole-no matter how you are. And that's what love is-not a feeling, a behavior. So if you can't let her go, give her her space, it's almost as if you don't trust her to make the right decisions and be the smart girl she is, and if you're afriad you're going to lose her some how, that's a risk of love. You can't always know everything unfortunately...it's why love is so scary. But I'm sure you both know how great it can be. And the reason this is so long and I'm saying all this is because I feel like as a friend of Megan's, and as someone who partially knows you and would like to be your friend as well, you both deserve to be happy, and definitely if either of you want to talk, I'll listen. I don't always have advice, and I'll never pretend to have all the answers, just the same questions. Talk to her, even if it does come out to be a screaming match, which by the way, I'm VERY sure feels really sucky for both of you, just know that she really does consider you, and how you guys will be affected. She wants you happy because it makes her happy...and I think that goes both ways.
Sorry that was immensely long, and if I sounded patronizing or came off like I know it all...well, it's clear from my own current status with my boyfriend and my relationship-i don't. But if I can help, I will. Hope things work out:)
Monica Caro
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