Here's to my 23rd Birthday!!
At this time last year I was saying to myself, "oh my god, I'm already 22." This year has presented a completely different outlook. I'm instead saying, "how am I only 23?" I think that comes from the great amounts of stress I've endured over the past year. I feel like I should be at least 30. It's sad really...the last year has just killed me. My one birthday wish for this year is to be able to live freely and happily and not have to deal with all the pain and stress. I feel like a zombie just waiting to break out of a grave, and I feel this is the year that that's going to happen. It all begins with me moving 2,000 miles away.
I knew when I graduated high school that dealing with one more summer in AZ would just about kill me. So you can imagine what 4 more did. It took away all the fire and life I lived each day with and made me someone I'm not happy with. I'm slowly getting myself back, but it's gonna take some time. Getting the hell out of that shithole, and away from the memories, the people, the same old shit day in and day out, will slowly help me regain the intensity and passion I know is buried deep within...that which I hope to eventually live each day with like I did once upon a time. I hope that PA offers me the opportunity for advancement as far as my career goes, love which is unknown to me, new friendships, and just a brand new beginning. This is exactly what I need right now, and I hope it's everything it seems to be...
I knew when I graduated high school that dealing with one more summer in AZ would just about kill me. So you can imagine what 4 more did. It took away all the fire and life I lived each day with and made me someone I'm not happy with. I'm slowly getting myself back, but it's gonna take some time. Getting the hell out of that shithole, and away from the memories, the people, the same old shit day in and day out, will slowly help me regain the intensity and passion I know is buried deep within...that which I hope to eventually live each day with like I did once upon a time. I hope that PA offers me the opportunity for advancement as far as my career goes, love which is unknown to me, new friendships, and just a brand new beginning. This is exactly what I need right now, and I hope it's everything it seems to be...