this house is not a home
too many thoughts and realizations are drowning me right now.maybe im not the person i always thought i was? maybe im not as smart as i always made myself out to be?maybe IM the one who really needs to grow up? i don't know. maybe feeling like this IS growing up. or maybe i just need to start thinking about what im doing and stop expecting someone to tell me no, or to give me the ok. im a big now , and if i want to be grow up, i guess i'll have to work at it. i just hate prooveing people right. " enjoy your life while your a kid because it sucks being an adult". why do we always have to learn everything after its too late.i would of taken way more advantage of my childhood if i knew growing up was going to suck this much. don't get me wrong im glad to be growing up and shit but reality really slapped me in the face lately. and to top things off, im turning into something that i really despise. i don't know how it happen. but i need to stop before its too late.
...a little dip into the puddle , that is my brain
...a little dip into the puddle , that is my brain