Here I am, for what it's worth
My poor little livejournal. I haven't written a serious entry here in so long I sometimes forget I have it. Life is...life. It seems a whole pile of crap has recently been hurled my way. Nothing goes right. Or actually, I should say, one thing will go right followed by a thousand things going wrong. I got a good job. YAY! no, now I have to work being pregnant with horrible morning sickness. AND, Ruben is being garnished for 25% of his net pay so I couldn't quit even if I wanted to. I must sit and suffer. Money problems consume my life. I hate money. Can't we just trade stuff? I'd gladly make a huge quilt and send it to the bank in exchange for letting us keep our fucked up vehicle. Yes it has also turned against us. Our waterpump went out and though an attempt has been made to fix this, it is still leaking. We've poured over $200 of money we don' have into fixing it. Damien still is not in preschool, nor will he get to since we can not afford to send him. All I have is negative. I can't even be happy about the new baby coming since we can't afford it. After losing the last one I thought Ruen would be happy about this. He says he is however I have had no real support from him this time. When I feel yucky, I may get an i'm sorry that sucks. maybe. But mostly I get attitude like it's my fault I feel like shit and how dare I bitch at him. I hate this. I feel alone in this one. Life is stupid.