one for the road
well today was another day..very long and annoyin..lol but today i remembered not to leave the house with my pajamas on..so anyways i go through my day, very norm, and i realize today that soon and very SOON i will be out of connecticut..im so happy my deliverence has finally come. connecticut has been nothin but my land of afflictions and i wont miss this place one bit! lol if the lord lets me live, i only have a few more monthes..august 1st..and ill be gone! =) but anyways we had some good discusions today in most of my classes..even tho three of them we had a substitute in. oo and esp comparative world religions..me and john (spelt wit an h) always fight over politics..hes a strong liberal, while myself i would say im a moderate republican, and yes i said moderate(i dont believe 100%, but most..ill say bout 92%) but man we have fun debating, even tho it gets pretty deep...but its just nice healthy debate..haha i wonder if its healthy tho (sometimes my blood does a lil jumpy lol) but whatever...i think that he and i are goin to this really cool thing in washington thats for a week in january..itll be awesome...classes, seein senate in session, and the banquets and such...hot hot hot! =)..lol i hope does go to, cuz i dont wanna go there by myself..haha oo but remember, i got the letter in the mail, not him..haha im more important john!! lol...but anyways i get home and i bake some cookies to get my mind off of everything..i dont know..i like cookin but it really helps me out when times are really gay (dad, a few friends, feelin like i got mono or something)..but anyways i get on and talk to some people and i get some homework done..I GOT THREE PAPERS DUE IN THE NEXT TWO WEEKS!! its like what are u teachers thinkin..way to be cool and give mounds of homework when yall know that life is stressful as it is i.e. colleges admissions and all the other crap that comes wit bein a 'later' teen. but anywho, bout 6:oo starts my awesome nite!!! listen to this...yet another 'friend' thing is messd up..i actually kinda liked jenny..actally alot, and in a few ways we really 'connected' but yet again, time tells that it was pointless...hmm what a suprise, then i got a lil distraught over another conversation wit some person, but w.e, not a big deal..just seemed to be alot of foolishnesses if u ask me, me bein misled again, i knew that somethin was wrong, not talkin, no more invitations to call, got rid of a comment i left and whatever other lil things i picked up, i just wish that people wouldnt lead u on, if theres somethin up, just say it, dont feel like wastin mine or someone else's time, esp when it has to do wit 'certain' things..and from our lil conversation and w.e, things seems to be non existant..ehh but thats ok i guess, =/..but then i ask myself why do...oo nm not important, but it will be interestin to see how work will be fri, thats if i dont transfer to trumbull, now that i think of it maybe i should...so anyways after that whole thing, i call mike (the guy from church) and we had a good time talkin..as usual, i thank GOD becuz i tell u, mike is like one of the only people that i can confide in and know that..(not to sound retarted) but everythin will be alright..i remember he even got me thru the summer of 2002..man that was a horrible time, prob the second worst time in my life..second to the monthes after the whole big 'new york train station incident' after my parents and i moved here...but i do remember(even tho i always try to forget) that summer..its even depressin to think of it two years afterwards..but whatever, just another black chapter in my life.....hmm well even tho its so hard, if u wonder what it is, and if i think you are important enough ill tell u(and i dont mean that in a rude way) but anyways...ya mike and i were ballin out on the phone hahaha mNm's hahahahaha..dont ask lolololol...so anyways i get off the phone wit him and i eat, get back to the computer and i started talkin to jess and i dont know, shes been actin strange latetly, but who knoweth (haha sry, just got done readin some shakespare for class) haha im such a loser lol, then i heard a song that i put on a cd..and then i started rememberin bout 'someone' and yes bek u know who it is..for some reason i started to get those feelings of a need to have all that back in my life, that i should try to do somethin bout it and try to go back to the way things were, and i 'laugh' at myself cuz it was all worthless, the drama, the anger, the frustration, the lies...why the heck do i want that all back in my life..can someone ask me why sometimes no matter how much i try, i cant let some things go, when i so want to and really need to!...and now im just watchin the game..the RED'S BETTER WIN!!....ooo wait, i know they will...u know why? cuz the yanks suck arrrrsssssseeeeeeeeee lol (lol bek i love that word..thank u thank u lol) and now im just sittin here talkin to holly and messin wit her..its so funny to lol..haha i love that chica hahaha..wit her platnum white hair hahahaha! even tho i tell her to get it back to brown, haha but no one ever listens to me lol ehh oo well lol...and im sittin here talkin to this girl from ri..but shes gettin on my nerves once again..people these days...psh!..well that was my day