OMG
I hope posting this releases whatever pressure I need because I feel like something inside me is about to blow up. I've been doing real well, nothing bothering me, but the last 24 hours is killing me. First, I asked one of my friends that are having a hard time this summer (stupid life stuff) if they wanted to get their mind off it and Id take them out to eat and talk or something, and this is the response I got "You're and awesome guy but I don't see us like that". Ouch, I didn't even mean it like that, but ok. I shook it off, and tried to explain what I meant, but still, how many times do I have to hear that. I'm tired of it, just tell me what is wrong with me already. Still, only one thing, no problem, dont worry about it. Facebook message from an Aunt of mine today "so are there any other wedding bells in the future we will be hearing?" Not that big of a blow there, but no Aunt Pam, not anytime soon. 2 things in a row, still I was fine. Right before I go see transformers 2 I see an old friend of mine, actually an ex that said she just wanted to talk. Shes married and has 2 kids, but her husband is away for some military purpose. We talk all fine and dandy all night, but I say I have to go so my friend and I can get in line, and she sexually seduces me the last 10 minutes hoping I wont go. Grabbing me through my jeans and whispering in my ear she doesn't have any panties on then biting my ear, needless to say I took off pretty fast after that. Fine, whatever, Transformers will make me forget the last 6 hours of crap I just went through, and it helped, but I get home the next day, and my dad gives me some lecture about how I'm 24 and need to settle down with someone because a majority of the single ladies the older you get all have kids or are taken, and tells me about my cousin who is 40 and hasnt found anyone. This one hurt for some reason...
I dont know what to do, God made me this way, someone who is trying to find the right person, but is having the hardest time even keeping a relationship going.
This just in from Facebook... "did you ever think your sister would get married before you?"
Really? Kicking me while I'm down now? I seriously feel like something inside me is about to blow up. I need to figure out what to do so this doesnt happen. Running might help but I'm not feeling well...
I dont know what to do, God made me this way, someone who is trying to find the right person, but is having the hardest time even keeping a relationship going.
This just in from Facebook... "did you ever think your sister would get married before you?"
Really? Kicking me while I'm down now? I seriously feel like something inside me is about to blow up. I need to figure out what to do so this doesnt happen. Running might help but I'm not feeling well...