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Today isn't a great day, but I always feel better when I talk about whats going on in my head. I still miss her, and my heart still tells me that there's that slight hope that maybe she will want what we had back, kind of like the movies maybe where there's always that separation but then they get back together even stronger in the end. My mind though tries to put some reality in me, the movies are bullshit kind of thing and its probably true. So I compromise, give her the space she wants and either the feelings will slowly fade or maybe she will miss it enough to want it back. I try not to text her a lot to give her some space, but I always find a reason to do so anyways. She says she enjoys it, and I enjoy hers, so its not terrible. I still feel kind of clingy (lack of a better word) hoping for a 2nd chance, but when you have something that good I think anyone would be lying to themselves if they said they weren't. If we enjoy the time spent together so much why can't obstacles, no matter what their size, be overcome? Especially when you'd do anything for this person? Crap... I'm back to questioning stuff I've questioned a million times. I trust God that He is taking me on the right path, it's just difficult when you don't know what is planned...
Never wanted a surprise this much
Never wanted a surprise this much