After reading this do I sound like an ass?
So here is the story of my weekend through the 4am beer and valume view... Is it safe?
Friday I started my day off by going to class like I allways do but, with a party to look forward to. All seems good, I’m nice and chipper. wtf, I said chipper? So I get to the party and set everything up and everybody else who planed to help me showed up.
So about this party...
It was a surprise 21st b-day party for some girl named Liz that I don't know. This girl I don't know named Kelee, who threw the party for Liz, asked me to play at it. So, since I never turn down the opportunity to play, I said yes. Besides it was an opportunity to spread my music to a new crowd of people. Well I never got into more than 3 records before I was asked to play rap and not just any rap. Fucking this girl is like "can you please play My Neck My Back". Why the fuck was I even asked to play there. So by midnight I was ambushed by 8 preppy ass, too much makeup wearing, Paris Hilton wannbe, bitches and the b-day girl and they were like it's her birthday and she wants to hear rap. So I was like I don't have rap. Kelee asked me to play and I am doing this for free. Your only other option is me leaving and maybe you will get some radio. They told me to play the radio so I packed up and left. There was no radio on the amp so they had no music. As I left the party died. Stupid bitches. It was funny, before I packed up I told one of the girls who asked me to play the radio and rap more than once that there was no radio and she looked at me like I was nobody, and said she was leaving anyways. So all the people who wanted us to change to the radio left right after we agreed to turn on the radio. I don't know how guys put up with girls like that.
So I got home around 1am and unloaded my shit. Then I got on aim and tried to get a hold of amity. She didn't respond but Brando asked me to come by and spin. So I left for his place in Moore. On my way amity paged me. She and Miranda needed a place to stay so I said they could sleep at my place, but we didn't meet up till 5am. I had had fun kickin it with Brando and Melissa. It was strange in an "I can't talk about it on lj" kinda way to say the least.
So I woke up on Saturday around 2pm and cleaned the bathroom, got a hair cut and cleaned the inside of my truck. I was looking forward to spinning at Dante's and meeting up with that girl from the 10/10 who likes me so I was in a decent mood hoping something fun would happen tonight. So I met up with the girl around 7:30. When we met up she wasn't quite how I remember her (I had only met her once at 10/10) and she is overdressed in a style I really don't find attractive (man I hope she doesn't know about this lj). We had planed to go eat before we went to Stillwater. Well she wasn't hungry so I had to eat in front of her while she watched. Damn that’s uncomfortable. So I had planed to take her somewhere nice to eat but since she wasn't hungry we went to arbys and it took a lot less time then I had planed for so dinner ended early. Since we had an hour and a half to burn before meeting up with her friends and Saul we went to the mall and I watched her buy stuff. So we finally meet up with her friend to go to Dante’s and have a rather silent drive to Stillwater. Once we got to Stillwater me and Saul played some records to an empty club. I talked to the girl some more and things kinda improved but I don't feel like any real connection was made. We leave Stillwater at 2am and I get dropped off at my truck and head home. Nothing happed between me and her, not even a kiss, although I could have got laid if I pushed for it.
So nearing the end of a not so great weekend what have I learned? Don't play at parties for strangers unless it is made VARY CLEAR that you play electronic music and electronic music only and don't put yourself in a potentially awkward positions with a girl you only met once, stick to a more escapable environment.
Normally I post a song that’s lyrics fit my mood but I cant think of one this time so I’ll try to make some poetry...
So why does my time seem to go to waste?
I put forth so much effort just to get a taste
of something great. Why it never happens
I can't seem to find out,
the thoughts in my head continue to scream and shout
This feeling, can people see it in my eyes?
Or does my facade continue to spread lies.
Does anyone feel this or am I alone?
My emotions seem monotone
I feel like I am stuck in the middle
of good and bad
I need to find out how to solve this riddle.
I feel so sad
I just need something in my life to go right
Everyday I struggle to continue the fight
to fill this hole, but I am getting nowhere
Everyday I continue to move forward in time
tick tock tick tock I must be stuck in slime
I'm still stuck here, same as the beginning
I keep moving through life with something missing
This feeling, Can't you see it in my eyes?
Or does my facade continue to spread lies.
Friday I started my day off by going to class like I allways do but, with a party to look forward to. All seems good, I’m nice and chipper. wtf, I said chipper? So I get to the party and set everything up and everybody else who planed to help me showed up.
So about this party...
It was a surprise 21st b-day party for some girl named Liz that I don't know. This girl I don't know named Kelee, who threw the party for Liz, asked me to play at it. So, since I never turn down the opportunity to play, I said yes. Besides it was an opportunity to spread my music to a new crowd of people. Well I never got into more than 3 records before I was asked to play rap and not just any rap. Fucking this girl is like "can you please play My Neck My Back". Why the fuck was I even asked to play there. So by midnight I was ambushed by 8 preppy ass, too much makeup wearing, Paris Hilton wannbe, bitches and the b-day girl and they were like it's her birthday and she wants to hear rap. So I was like I don't have rap. Kelee asked me to play and I am doing this for free. Your only other option is me leaving and maybe you will get some radio. They told me to play the radio so I packed up and left. There was no radio on the amp so they had no music. As I left the party died. Stupid bitches. It was funny, before I packed up I told one of the girls who asked me to play the radio and rap more than once that there was no radio and she looked at me like I was nobody, and said she was leaving anyways. So all the people who wanted us to change to the radio left right after we agreed to turn on the radio. I don't know how guys put up with girls like that.
So I got home around 1am and unloaded my shit. Then I got on aim and tried to get a hold of amity. She didn't respond but Brando asked me to come by and spin. So I left for his place in Moore. On my way amity paged me. She and Miranda needed a place to stay so I said they could sleep at my place, but we didn't meet up till 5am. I had had fun kickin it with Brando and Melissa. It was strange in an "I can't talk about it on lj" kinda way to say the least.
So I woke up on Saturday around 2pm and cleaned the bathroom, got a hair cut and cleaned the inside of my truck. I was looking forward to spinning at Dante's and meeting up with that girl from the 10/10 who likes me so I was in a decent mood hoping something fun would happen tonight. So I met up with the girl around 7:30. When we met up she wasn't quite how I remember her (I had only met her once at 10/10) and she is overdressed in a style I really don't find attractive (man I hope she doesn't know about this lj). We had planed to go eat before we went to Stillwater. Well she wasn't hungry so I had to eat in front of her while she watched. Damn that’s uncomfortable. So I had planed to take her somewhere nice to eat but since she wasn't hungry we went to arbys and it took a lot less time then I had planed for so dinner ended early. Since we had an hour and a half to burn before meeting up with her friends and Saul we went to the mall and I watched her buy stuff. So we finally meet up with her friend to go to Dante’s and have a rather silent drive to Stillwater. Once we got to Stillwater me and Saul played some records to an empty club. I talked to the girl some more and things kinda improved but I don't feel like any real connection was made. We leave Stillwater at 2am and I get dropped off at my truck and head home. Nothing happed between me and her, not even a kiss, although I could have got laid if I pushed for it.
So nearing the end of a not so great weekend what have I learned? Don't play at parties for strangers unless it is made VARY CLEAR that you play electronic music and electronic music only and don't put yourself in a potentially awkward positions with a girl you only met once, stick to a more escapable environment.
Normally I post a song that’s lyrics fit my mood but I cant think of one this time so I’ll try to make some poetry...
So why does my time seem to go to waste?
I put forth so much effort just to get a taste
of something great. Why it never happens
I can't seem to find out,
the thoughts in my head continue to scream and shout
This feeling, can people see it in my eyes?
Or does my facade continue to spread lies.
Does anyone feel this or am I alone?
My emotions seem monotone
I feel like I am stuck in the middle
of good and bad
I need to find out how to solve this riddle.
I feel so sad
I just need something in my life to go right
Everyday I struggle to continue the fight
to fill this hole, but I am getting nowhere
Everyday I continue to move forward in time
tick tock tick tock I must be stuck in slime
I'm still stuck here, same as the beginning
I keep moving through life with something missing
This feeling, Can't you see it in my eyes?
Or does my facade continue to spread lies.