Things that are NOT:

[smooth_katt]

I am NOT panicking.
I am NOT overheated.
I am NOT surrounded by a chaotic mess.
I am NOT losing what little I knew about playing guitar.
I am NOT hungry.

I am NOT watching Knocked Up for the fourth time in as many days.
I am NOT forgetting about laundry.
I am NOT nervous.
I am NOT afraid of the power being shut off before I leave and having to bake with no fans.
I am NOT blocked in my apartment from all the bags of trash piled by the door because it's raining and I haven't been to the dumpster.

I am NOT about to throw away an entire trashbag of food that I couldn't eat/give away/identify/remember when I bought it.

I am NOT worried about the cat vomiting.
I am NOT upset that my mom called me three times today.
I am NOT angry that she then tried to guilt-trip me before hanging up on me.
I am NOT feeling sick.
I am NOT feeling like a total ass.

I am NOT humming MSI's "Faggot" to forget about anything.
I am NOT making a mess looking for things that I packed away by accident.
I am NOT afraid to go to sleep because I had a dream where Amy seduced me, then tried to kill herself.
I am NOT concerned about my ankles swelling up again.
I am NOT afraid of what will happen to my mom in that rapidly decaying neighborhood.
I am NOT frustrated.

I am NOT exhausted.

I am NOT going to cry.